What Induces Fear?

imdeafsowhat said:
Indeed. He also wanted to get physical with me.

Is that normal?
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if he wasn't med-compliant, yes. having intense mood swings, anger and irritability is a sign of mania or depression. that doesn't make it right, but it is part of the illness.
 
Hear Again said:
if he was non med-compliant, yes. having intense mood swings, anger and irritability is a sign of mania or depression. that doesn't make it right, but this is what happens.
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I made the right choices to avoid him in the future because he refuse to seek help or find a way to contain himself.
 
imdeafsowhat said:
I made the right choices to avoid him in the future because he refuse to seek help or find a way to contain himself.
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the best thing he can do is to take his meds on a daily basis.

i can't contain my anger either, so i avoid people whenever i can.
 
Hear Again said:
have you talked to your professor about this? if he or she is aware of your flashbacks, perhaps they can choose their words more carefully so as not to trigger you. (i should have done the same thing to my statistics professor explaining that constant walking from one side of the room to the other makes me extremely manic.)
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I usually end up having to explain at some point or another when my teacher/professor notices I looked really "spaced out." (I look spaced out when I'm in flashback.) Yes that triggers me really badly too. Pacing back and forth, and walking behind me! <cringe> Unfortunately this semester my professor happens to have the exact same dialect and accent of English as one of the people responsible for my traumas. Also the person responsible for my trauma was my teacher, so the overall classroom/professor setting is already triggering for me, let alone that they share an accent and dialect and a habit of walking back and forth.
 
I have a hard time talking to my teachers/professors about it cause it usually involves me being in a room alone with them which I cannot handle.
 
Nika said:
I have a hard time talking to my teachers/professors about it cause it usually involves me being in a room alone with them which I cannot handle.
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why not call them on the phone or send an IM?
 
Nika said:
I usually end up having to explain at some point or another when my teacher/professor notices I looked really "spaced out." (I look spaced out when I'm in flashback.) Yes that triggers me really badly too. Pacing back and forth, and walking behind me! <cringe> Unfortunately this semester my professor happens to have the exact same dialect and accent of English as one of the people responsible for my traumas. Also the person responsible for my trauma was my teacher, so the overall classroom/professor setting is already triggering for me, let alone that they share an accent and dialect and a habit of walking back and forth.
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why don't you withdraw from that class and register for another section instead?
 
Hear Again said:
why don't you withdraw from that class and register for another section instead?
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Tried--all the other sections are full. And my reason isn't "good enough" for them either (especially since I have to keep it vague.)
 
Nika said:
Tried--all the other sections are full. And my reason isn't "good enough" for them either (especially since I have to keep it vague.)
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why can't you be honest with them? students can't be discriminated against because of a mental illness or other condition under the ADA.
 
I've always had issues in school because of some of my traumas. I have tried some years to go to the bitter end to get accommodations, whether it's alternative curriculum material, or changing classes. For some reason people just don't consider mental illness to be on the same level as physical disability. I ask my teachers for alternative format (usually electronic) to accommodate my blindness, which they have no problem with. But I go to them about my PTSD and all the sudden it's not legitimate. I know that under the ADA I am protected, but people violate the ADA all the time. I could technically bring them to court, but for me it's just not worth it. It's the same issue year after year and I am tired of putting so much energy into something that I rarely get any results from. So I am trying to deal with it in therapy since schools often fail at accommodating my emotional needs.
 
Height, close in space ( couldn't breathe ), spiders, and snakes. I can't think of what else at this moment.

One day when I opened my closet door in my bedroom and I saw a HUGE spider clingin' on the wall above my clothes that were hung a slightly below. I screamed my head off and my room mate ran to my bedroom and I kinda of stutterin' with my finger pointin' at the UGLY and HUGE spider. My knees were knocked at each other. Gee...he walked closer to have a look at it and sure enough, that spider could bite you, it ain't a friendly one. He ran to get a bugs/insects spray to kill it. I was pertified! :Ohno:
 
Nika said:
I've always had issues in school because of some of my traumas. I have tried some years to go to the bitter end to get accommodations, whether it's alternative curriculum material, or changing classes. For some reason people just don't consider mental illness to be on the same level as physical disability. I ask my teachers for alternative format (usually electronic) to accommodate my blindness, which they have no problem with. But I go to them about my PTSD and all the sudden it's not legitimate. I know that under the ADA I am protected, but people violate the ADA all the time. I could technically bring them to court, but for me it's just not worth it. It's the same issue year after year and I am tired of putting so much energy into something that I rarely get any results from. So I am trying to deal with it in therapy since schools often fail at accommodating my emotional needs.
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have you ever considered taking online courses? that would be a good alternative.

as for accommodations, i've never thought about asking the university's disability office to accommodate my bipolar, but now that my rapid cycling is becoming more of a problem, i'm definitely going to discuss it with them.

by the way, why not ask your therapist and/or a psychiatrist to write out a letter explaining your diagnosis of ptsd? i have a letter from my current psychiatrist about my bipolar and how my rapid cycling affects me (especially when i experience a severe manic/psychotic episode) and i plan to give this to the disability office when i return to classes.
 
Sometimes fear will strike me due to I start thinking.

Like for an example.

On a rainy day Hubby is out working. I would sit at home waiting then I would start thinking out of the blue! No particular reason. What would I do if something happens to him. What would I do how would my kids react. Etc.

I myself do not fear death, but I fear it on my love ones.

Sounds strange and selfish I know!

But I can not help to think it sometimes.


Thoughts of bad things induce fear sometimes.
 
Babyblue said:
Sometimes fear will strike me due to I start thinking.

Like for an example.

On a rainy day Hubby is out working. I would sit at home waiting then I would start thinking out of the blue! No particular reason. What would I do if something happens to him. What would I do how would my kids react. Etc.

I myself do not fear death, but I fear it on my love ones.

Sounds strange and selfish I know!

But I can not help to think it sometimes.


Thoughts of bad things induce fear sometimes.
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Yea, that's because, death will not bring people back once they die. And, we will never be able to see them again. Strange feelin' without them. It's perfectly normal to feel this way. :)
 
Hear Again said:
have you ever considered taking online courses? that would be a good alternative.

as for accommodations, i've never thought about asking the university's disability office to accommodate my bipolar, but now that my rapid cycling is becoming more of a problem, i'm definitely going to discuss it with them.

by the way, why not ask your therapist and/or a psychiatrist to write out a letter explaining your diagnosis of ptsd? i have a letter from my current psychiatrist about my bipolar and how my rapid cycling affects me (especially when i experience a severe manic/psychotic episode) and i plan to give this to the disability office when i return to classes.
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Thanks for all the suggestions, Hear Again. I will definitely ask my psychiatrist for a letter! And I also think online courses would be great. I could focus on learning and not trying not to be triggered!

I hope that your university takes your bipolar well. People can be ignorant about mental illness as you know, and I just hope you don't end up on the receiving end of that ignorance.
 
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