Would you mind explaining what it feels like to have a "mixed episode (manic and depressed simultaneously)?
Sure. When I have a mixed episode, I have all of the following symptoms at the same time. (Note: Sometimes these symptoms can cycle between one and the other. For example, feeling very exciteable one minute and lethargic the next.)
* Tons of energy
* Feeling anxious like I could jump out of my skin
* Feeling exciteable
* Feeling extremely happy
* Feeling very depressed
* Feeling extremely angry/irritable
* Feeling tired
* Feeling like I want to do 10 things at once
* Racing thoughts (These are thoughts that play in my head over and over again like a broken record. They may be worst case scenarios that will probably never come true, fears that I have, worries about an upcoming event, random thoughts that have no relation to each other -- for example suddenly feeling very upset when I think about my old pdoc and how he never helped me or song lyrics)
* Difficulty concentrating
* Pressured speech (talking rapidly)
* Flight of ideas (stringing sentences together than have no relationship to each other...for example starting off by saying that I'm hungry, then indicating how much I hate snow and finally talking about the 1,000 things I have to get done this week. Using that as an example, a thought I would express to another person might be "I'm hungry right now. I really hate winter and wish spring would come. I have to clean my apartment, do the laundry, go to the bank and take Tigger to the vet.)
Does that make sense, Mints? Mixed episodes are confusing to understand because most people can't comprehend how it's possible to feel extremely happy and depressed at the same time.