I'll try to explain a little bit better my instinctive response to moving on or putting it behind me. The people who administered an organized crime of great sadism to me were Jewish. One of the things I learned being raised among holocaust survivors is that a basic need is to be understood. Many of them end up documenting and trying to account for what happened so that the pogrom and memory will not be lost.
What Gabriel did was try to prevent me from being recognized as a victim. He set on me with new attacks, cold-bloodedly making leers out of my private life, and helping those who tortured me lie about what they did.
So what I ended up with was a condition like holocaust survivors sometimes did, driven by a very deep need to document, to tell, to make understood and aware and to find people compassionate enough to care about what I bring witness to.
I hope that it will be said of my hard work, Jim Crary, despite the negligence of the FBI and refusal of the police to do anything managed to create a dossier and profile of persons clearly involved in the AIDS Onslaught who the government was willing to ignor and pretend hadn't done anything.
Which brings me to the evidence. Have you looked at the evidence? The evidence was planted on me when I was tortured as a child. I became suspicious when they used me for a mandatory testing guinea pig on Mt. Desert Island in 1988.