Perhaps being confronted by the truth is painful for you.
I hope it leads you to seek meaningful professional help.
Being confronted with hostility towards me about a past in which I was terrorized is painful for me.
The Pitmans were using inhalants so I did the same. I was afraid not to. They had taken complete control over me with violence and threats. The situation was then as now an awful lot like Deliverance.
My mother was forced to sell our house and move to get us away from them. It was very sad and frightening. She screamed and cried, but realized I hadn't gone to school for being very afraid.
It was done to us I am sure in a systematic and organized klan way to punish daddy having dedicated a book to Martin Luther King (Humanizing the School by Ryland Wesley Crary, Alfred Knopf, 1969). By the time I snapped out of traumatic amnesia the color line issues had been blurred towards me on campus, largely by acts of fraud.
For example, I was set up as a passenger in a van that drove recklessly at Kelly Elementary School and then named as the driver. I was an infuriated passenger who quit the job over the incident and witnesses eventually did weigh in to help me. Kelly is predominantly Black, so it was scandalous. Someone could have been killed. A child could have been.
Because the truth is a radical claim to noble injuries people balked. Gabriel really is a predator. It is horrifying how he misapprehended the situation and just set upon me with unbelievable brutality. There has been a united front not to credit me.
As for not being able to read the letters or seeing them as normal and casual you are really writing my defense, because I was tortured under the heavy handed idea that I should have understood the letters and stopped Lennon's murder.
I think one of the most punishing aspects of what was done to me is that I questioned Reagan's role and judgement for a long time and the result was complete alienation towards me.
The content of the letters however is very clear. She was involved in the murder of John Lennon and they set me up as an AIDS testing guinea pig. You can see that perfectly clearly from the website:
texasschoolbook - Home
The writer of these letters correlates the shooting of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. to De De's birthday by a factor of six years and calls attention to coincidences. Six years later on her birthday John Lennon was shot. It is the exact same configuration and the text of the letters obviously reads like a script.
The conclusion about these letters is that they are a criminal plot written before the murder of Lennon and sent to me as a hostage, incomprehending child in the hopes of holding me to blame.
I became suspicious of these letters after being used for an AIDS testing guinea pig on Mt. Desert Island, the archive of which I have also posted for review. They subjected me to extortion and blackmail related interrogation of my private life after deafening me deliberately in childhood then using me horrendously as an object of inhuman trafficking when I was a traumatized little boy.
I am profoundly alone from my injuries.
It is my sworn testimony that these men tortured me as a child, resulting in a torn facial nerve and near complete deafness, a destroyed life. Then, in the 80's after talking to me before AIDS started of "a scheme to transform the human race by injecting the blood" they used me in an entrapment war game for a mandatory testing lab rat. I am in sickness of health today from biomedical abuses on my person.
There are three glowering primary causes for concern, all coming from the same political action group/social program:
1. The deafness and nerve trauma.
2. The Lennon/King Murder papers.
3. The AIDS Testing operation archive surrounding my name with positive and negative signs.
The letters were written in 1974 several years before AIDS started and are encrypted with the plan. The AIDS testing archive and nerve injury emerged from the same political action.
In other words, those who released AIDS left a message out in broad daylight and the authorities evidently supported them.
I suggest you share this information elsewhere. But please feel welcome to join in other topic here on AD. There are tons of topics here to discuss.