Let me Rant, Please?

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Empress i am sorry you have had so much trouble. I see what you have said here and i hate to hear it. But here is the thing. You went into the roomate situation KNOWING they would be mean to you, people you have never met. If you felt this prior to meeting these people you may have already set in your mind looking for them to do that. Then no matter what they did you would say Oh see they are mean just like i thought. You don't think that affected your attitude in any way towards them? If you had that in your mind you don't think it would change how you treated them?
Also i used to work with a woman who said every where she worked people were mean to her. They always treated her so bad. This woman was a B*TCH!! she cause drama everywhere and was a trouble maker and back stabber. But it was the other people who were mean. she never saw what she did to get that reaction from them. She was just an awful person. she never messed with me thought (i think she was scared of the gay man! LOL) although during one of her particularly bad times when she was being a real hag and complaining how everyone at every job has always been so mean to here. I stopped her right there and said you know what? I am through hearing you say that. All these jobs (she job hopped a lot) with all the different people and no one knew you from the job before. Different cities and so forth. Yet everyone treats you mean. The only thing in all of these places that is the same is YOU. Maybe the problem is not these other people maybe the problem is you. You do nothing but cause problems here, obviously you have done so everywhere you have worked since we treat you the same as everywhere else.
Empress you may want to look deep inside yourself to see how you treat people. If everyone is mean to you what do you do that would cause that? I know that there are mean people all over the world but i find it hard to believe that you have some magic thing about you that pulls all of them all of the time to you. I have read some of your posts here and you can be mean in threads when no one has said anything to you. You seem bitter, and things in your life i understand can cause that. Just let it go, resolve in yourself that you will be a happy person. Don't let people get to you so much. If you think those two you previously mentioned are out to get you.... you are letting them. It is a control thing. You give them the power. If they try to make you mad and you jump, they have controled you. Be a strong woman and don't let anything people who try to hurt you get to you. Don't give your power away. Treat people with respect and kindness. People will try to walk over you, identify those people and don't waste your time on them.
 
Empress i am sorry you have had so much trouble. I see what you have said here and i hate to hear it. But here is the thing. You went into the roomate situation KNOWING they would be mean to you, people you have never met. If you felt this prior to meeting these people you may have already set in your mind looking for them to do that. Then no matter what they did you would say Oh see they are mean just like i thought. You don't think that affected your attitude in any way towards them? If you had that in your mind you don't think it would change how you treated them?
Also i used to work with a woman who said every where she worked people were mean to her. They always treated her so bad. This woman was a B*TCH!! she cause drama everywhere and was a trouble maker and back stabber. But it was the other people who were mean. she never saw what she did to get that reaction from them. She was just an awful person. she never messed with me thought (i think she was scared of the gay man! LOL) although during one of her particularly bad times when she was being a real hag and complaining how everyone at every job has always been so mean to here. I stopped her right there and said you know what? I am through hearing you say that. All these jobs (she job hopped a lot) with all the different people and no one knew you from the job before. Different cities and so forth. Yet everyone treats you mean. The only thing in all of these places that is the same is YOU. Maybe the problem is not these other people maybe the problem is you. You do nothing but cause problems here, obviously you have done so everywhere you have worked since we treat you the same as everywhere else.
Empress you may want to look deep inside yourself to see how you treat people. If everyone is mean to you what do you do that would cause that? I know that there are mean people all over the world but i find it hard to believe that you have some magic thing about you that pulls all of them all of the time to you. I have read some of your posts here and you can be mean in threads when no one has said anything to you. You seem bitter, and things in your life i understand can cause that. Just let it go, resolve in yourself that you will be a happy person. Don't let people get to you so much. If you think those two you previously mentioned are out to get you.... you are letting them. It is a control thing. You give them the power. If they try to make you mad and you jump, they have controled you. Be a strong woman and don't let anything people who try to hurt you get to you. Don't give your power away. Treat people with respect and kindness. People will try to walk over you, identify those people and don't waste your time on them.

Well at Gallaudet in Spring 2003, I was the first person to move in the dorm room.... then 2nd week, a person moved in because of her issue with
the other roommates. And I thought oh no, she might come up with
some rules. But then I learned she was no problem.... We don't
speak to each other
... she goes to CLASSES and I go CLASSES and we just IGNORE each other completely, we don't say HI or anything...

And that was fine with me. :fingersx: She was quiet and overweight
and look like she was hispanic, with low self esteem.

But then 3rd week, another Person moved in.... an African, plainlooking
woman, who know how to carry herself, always look in the mirror, make
sure her long hair braid is well done and pretty....
She saw that me and the overweight girl were content... and she
decided to STEP IN.

Trying to lead and kept wanted us to speak to her.... The overweight
give in easily and try to please her....
But me, I SHUT THEM OUT.... luckily I stay in the Carlin Hall, I can
LOCK my door... to avoid them.

The African saw that I wouldn't participate, and she kept reporting
on me many times because I wouldn't follow her rules.

1. She told the Overweight to buy some cleaning detergents and mop
and things for the bathroom...

2. She gave $50 to the Overweight.

3. She told me that I should give the Overweight $50 too. and I did
said I will.

4. She said she want the bathroom clean every week. So she made a
list, she will clean the bathroom every 1st week, The overweight will
clean the bathroom every 2nd week, and I will clean every 3rd week,
and the 4th week, all of us clean the bathroom.

So anyway...

I didn't have money on me.... Gallaudet is too expensive.... so
I waited waited waited for my SSI to come in, but Gallaudet always
demand for me to pay for stuff.... so I was trying to figure out
how I suppose to give the Overweight $50.... So I did save every pennies...
Finally I got $50 in the bank... I was on my way to the ATM machine
to retrieve the $50 and would give the Overweight the money.......

But the African REPORT :deal: on me!!!!!!!!!!

So me, her, and the overweight, all sat down with the Boss of the Dorm,
and because the African pissed me off, I told the Boss, "I don't have to
pay the $50, I changed my mind, I was going to give the Overweight the $50 today, but since I was reported... I won't give a dime.

And then another time,

It was my week to clean the bathroom, and I saw that the Overweight
did not clean the bathroom.... so I decided not to clean...
And the African reported me again...

Why report on me, why not report on the Overweight who didn't clean the bathroom?

So anyway, I moved out of the dorm room and move to the 1st floor,
and this time, I was the first person in the room... I moved all my stuff
in the room.... the other person moved in, she didn't make the rule,
she was white and smaller than me.... and so we IGNORE each other....

and I had to go home for a month to see my momma.
And then when I came back to Gallaudet... the other person moved in....
she was TALLER than me....
She saw that me and the smaller white girl were content...

And taller one, decide to STEP IN, and made RULES, "I want the bathroom
clean everyday." And she had her door wide OPEN, and she would wave
at me and tell me to come in and talk... So we talked... and she
told me about her personal life and stuff... blah blah blah, and she
said she was leaving for a few days.....

And while she left, the smaller girl complained to the RA of the dorm,
that I wasn't doing what I suppose to be doing....

SIGH!!!!

Same thing at CSUN, my first roommate there the TALLER one step in and makes the rule.

I moved out of there and I moved to another dorm room, the Asian
who is the messy one, she Step in.... because she complain about
how flithy the bathtub looks.... she said she is tired of cleaning the
tub out, so she asked me to clean the tub out, so I did it...
And she was happy.

Maybe I over exaggarated a little bit, the ROOMATES are not mean.

I confessed.... I AM TOOOOOOO LAZY....

I AM TOO LAZY!!!!!!!!!


I don't want to clean up the mess....

My bathtub in my bathroom at home turned GREEN!!!!!!!

Even the sink turned GREEN

Even the Toliet turned RED

I know that I am not the cleanest person in the world....

But I don't like to CLEAN UP Behind myself.....

I don't even CHANGE MY BEDSHEET, maybe once every 2 months....

I don't take out trash everyday....

I don't wash dishes, but like to use paper plate and use the same
cup I drink out of for a whole week.... and I just put pots and pans
in the Dishwasher.

:pissed: :pissed: :pissed: :pissed: :pissed: :pissed: :pissed:

I don't even like to SPEAK to people.... I am a QUIET person
who like QUIET!!!!!!!

When I was at work last week at a VR training office, I don't
talk to people or co workers, if I have a problem I just talk to boss....
But Co Workers and my BOSS always come up to me and said,
"HI, how are you?" And people always FORCED me to TALK.
My manager told me to get up and go over there and TALK to people
during Lunch Break....

So I went over there and I'm just trying to figure out what to talk about,
I have been working there for 2 months, and I don't know anybody name
except the boss.

So I quit... and went on home with momma... and be LAZY and live
off SSI.... and that is it.

Right now, I feel like ranting and that is why I am on this FORUM,
just lay all my problem on the TABLE right here... to let out
all of my anger and stuff on here on this Forum, picking on folks here...

Because I have no where else to release to.
 
You seems more happy and relax to stay home and recluse.

Please try to play fair - help your relatives and friends, sharing the responsible, not living on freeloader its wrong.

Quit complaining, picking on folks!! They have the right to reserved about you. Who start it, thinking about it.

Anyway hope the year 2007 will see better of you - only you to prove it yourself.

:hug:
 
Yes, something wrong with you because... You have real low self esteem that you dont accept who you are..

people treated me chit and bad just because I am too friendly and happy.. and my life isnt perfect.. I moved on..

so.. all you want whine and rant.. Stop using your own problems and looks, it wont help your life better.. Just be happy that you have life.. You have people love you and you just keep turn your life around .. missed the point... there are many people who love you.. you keep step in wrong place, wrong crowd..

I think its more than 100 times I have hear from your complaining.. what do you want from us.. I am tired of playing your game.. Look up on the bright side.. and learn to love YOURSELF!!
 
You seems more happy and relax to stay home and recluse.

Please try to play fair - help your relatives and friends, sharing the responsible, not living on freeloader its wrong.

Quit complaining, picking on folks!! They have the right to reserved about you. Who start it, thinking about it.

Anyway hope the year 2007 will see better of you - only you to prove it yourself.

:hug:


I am happy at home. That is all I want to do, anyway.
In spring 2003, I set up a camcorder, and I put it right next to me
and the computer and the desk and I show proof to my classmates and professor, I just sat there 15 hours on the internet.
My classmates and professor said to me, "You are the most boring person
I ever seen."

That is all I do.... everyday..... that is all I want to do.... everyday...

Just be on the internet for 15 hours a day, everyday....

I am not a THREAT to anyone.... I don't know why Gays, Ridor, and
everyone here think I am a THREAT.

I like to try out one time, like go try and sell something at Deafnation Expo.
And I just wanted to know what it is like to do that, that is all....
JUST ONE TIME.

If people don't want me to work, then FINE!!!!

When I go to College.... this is my schedule here...

Monday, Wednesday, and Friday

Watch Soap Opera

Class at 2 pm

Class at 3 pm

Eat Dinner

Go on Internet for 9 hour

Study

Go to bed


Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday

Sleep all day

Soap Opera on Tuesday and Thursday

Internet for 15 hours

And study

Go to bed.


When I am at home and not go college...

I sleep, eat, watch tv, internet, pee, poop, take bath....



And I don't know why my ROOMMATES have a problem with me
doing that above... when I be on the internet and do little stuff.

I'm a very passive person...

And I don't see myself as a threat to anyone...

And I like to say some comments... about something....
And people with FIRE SIGNS like to blow it all in big proportion.

I don't ask for much...

All I want to do is

Go on Cruises, travel, maybe try to be an Internship at an Entertainment
Industry so that I can see what it is like how they make film, and learn about tv and film, and learn more stuff...
I wanna learn about how to set up a website...
And stuff like that...

But it seems like... people are like, "Oh my gosh, she is going to Walmart,
ahhhhhhhhhh, oh look she is picking up Grapefruit, ahhhhh."

And people are forming conspiracy, "HIDE ALL THE GRAPEFRUITS!!!!" next
time.
 
I emailed Ridor and told him that I like his Blog and I read sometimes
and I gave him $5 donation... by using paypal.
 
Nah, I think that Empress does NOT have low-esteem at all

Because anyone with his/her own strong opinion
does NOT have low esteem at all, Right ?

What do you think ?
:thumb:
 
Sorry you have facial disfurement.... the looks does not count.... it is inner bearuty counts... change your attitudes to positive... try to get along with anyone.... show them your inner beauty.... most of people i know... counts on the inner beauty....GET A REAL LIFE WITH A POSITIVE ATTITUDE!!!... i dont know who Ridor is... Maybe he or she is trying to get you to see your own inner beauty... YOu just drown in your own self pity...
 
Nah, I think that Empress does NOT have low-esteem at all

Because anyone with his/her own strong opinion
does NOT have low esteem at all, Right ?

What do you think ?
:thumb:

I SECOND that!!! :giggle:
 
Nah, I think that Empress does NOT have low-esteem at all

Because anyone with his/her own strong opinion
does NOT have low esteem at all, Right ?

What do you think ?
:thumb:


Maybe I don't have low esteem...

I should be proud of myself...

because of my disfigure face doesn't bother me at all...

I am a very happy person
 
Maybe I don't have low esteem...

I should be proud of myself...

because of my disfigure face doesn't bother me at all...

I am a very happy person


Yeah, I knew it !! And....

I also knew you actually LOVE your life
in spite of everything :giggle:

Nah, you do NOT have any self-pity at all ....
I noticed these people with low-esteem tend
to complain about your rants (nothing wrong
with your rants)

Look at the world so many people are writing and
ranting about everything anyway !

Some people do have the Guts
to do the ranting I am one of these people
who do NOT have the Guts to do the Ranting,
but I do have the Guts to do somethine else.. :D

I cannot remember if I mentioned before that
IF Cher shows up and donate $$$ to fix your face
BUT then you probably will remain
the same old Empress anyway... Hey, Cher,
you are welcome to this thread

:thumb:
 
Yeah, I knew it !! And....

I also knew you actually LOVE your life
in spite of everything :giggle:

Nah, you do NOT have any self-pity at all ....
I noticed these people with low-esteem tend
to complain about your rants (nothing wrong
with your rants)

Look at the world so many people are writing and
ranting about everything anyway !

Some people do have the Guts
to do the ranting I am one of these people
who do NOT have the Guts to do the Ranting,
but I do have the Guts to do somethine else.. :D

I cannot remember if I mentioned before that
IF Cher shows up and donate $$$ to fix your face
BUT then you probably will remain
the same old Empress anyway... Hey, Cher,
you are welcome to this thread

:thumb:

Thank for letting me realize it....

Yeah I do have guts.... :giggle:

When things go bad, I SHINE...

If people do me wrong, I'll CONFRONT them.

If I have some enemies, I go to them and ask, "What's UP?"
 
Where's MISS P??? oh it's Deafilmedia!!!
 
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