Empress, I understand how you feel. I have a book that I wrote in 2004 and it ends with my birthday that God... um, I can not spoil the ending!!!! Sorry! But I can say that my book is 500 pages long story about how difficult I have to live in this sicko world! You are not alone. There are a few of us in here too! Hey, you may have read my feedback... so you know how I feel too. So, that is why I am not in here much anymore!!!
I can tell you a few paragraphs from my book I wrote and I will have it published. I have a few rants too! That is in my other book I am writing! It has over 100 pages on subjects about employments, deaf schools, the Deaf, the Hearing, the way education is, the goverments including US, even faith (religion), and many more.
But my book I wrote about my life I faced hardships that the Deaf at Deaf residental school hated me that I am very good looking, very much of a hearing person with hearing loss (born HOH since my mom had rubella while carrying me at the time and 3 doctors wanted her to abort me!) That case was the first sick world shoved into my face while I was growing in my mom! Sick world still does this to me to this day. I am having a very difficult time to get my business to grow. I only got ONE client this year last March to design and CAD drafting of their new main lodge and bunkhouses for their deaf Christian camp in upstate NY region. God truly bless me with that regard but I started my business legally in March 2005 and I have NO other clients or steady work in CAD or Design work. All I get were, "We will call you." BS. Sorry for the language but you get my meaning. It really means, "Get out, sorry you do not have the job!" Screw them. They are bunch of losers anyway. I laugh at them now days because usually God will take care of them and I have seen those businesses fell apart!!
See, let God take care of the problems, not you. I have had lfemale osers, users, trashers, leechers, and sharks using me for my car, stole my money, even time! They were all females and a couple of males. I learned to change that myself! I accepted the Lord on March 28, 1988 and changed my life but it took time to change though. I was stabbed at through my car seat because I had to dump this loser who used me for my car. I also had the next loser who stole my car and ruined my beautiful mural I painted (3 days old mural!) at a now-defunct arcade called Buttons Aracade. She and 2 others were arrested and has a record now and had to pay me for damages to my car. Then a few years later, I had to dump another loser whom I thought she was a Christian but she used me and I called to tell her its overwith but I got arrested for harassment I didnt do! Is that odd??
God took care of it and I was ROR and case dismissed due to deaf language barrier. I prayed to God to bless that judge and she got promoted and elected to higher bench! From city to state!
Now, thanks to God, I met my wonderful wife, Tara who is an LPN, hearing woman. She loves me for whom I am. She told me why she accepted me on the first night we met at a singles dance. She said I was really me. Sure, she hates my rants. But I was so peaceful and nice and truly a gentleman when I met her. We married last August and I dont have SS anymore because they said I am not a child anymore. My father retired so that is how I used to get them.
I am STILL looking for FT design or CAD career and right now, I tell ya, my dear friend, I HAVE to work at a factory to support my wife and I. I found that I really can make more money than ss! I personally disliked ss benefits anyhow since I was living in a very limited world of activity and life. Now, I am saving up to buy a business by next spring!! Yeah!!! Hear that!!?? Gotta give a little ok?
I have had other bad experiences.. I even tried to invite deaf people to come to my parties. First, when I was in mainstreaming high school with a deaf program, I tried to set up roller skating parties at a local rink in more centralized location than 45 mins drive outside of the city! Skating was popular in early 80s. Did any come?? NOPE! I often had to go out far when my mom who is divorced and had to work during evening hours.. she asked her boss to get out early just to get me out there 45 mins drive and drop me off and drive another 45 mins to get home then 2 hours later, to drive out again another 45 mins to pick me up and drive home 45 mins again! I really felt bad and held back tears for my mom. I love my mom! God bless her!
So you know what? I DON'T really cares about those bunch of deaf losers from my local high school. Screw them! You should too screw them off! Forget them!
Hey, to this day, it has been 24 years since high school graduation, I REFUSE to attend reunions... first one--10th anniversary reunion, a couple of hearing students worked hard to find me and found me through my father's phone number and I told them NO. Cost 45 bucks each anyway.
Then the 20th reunion.. the most famous loser who picked on me the most tried to find me again and called my brother since his name is similar to my father but my father moved to Florida (retired). I got upset about that.
Third reunion was not a reunion... it was a retirement party for our beloved teacher.. I love her.. really nice woman. She has a big heart with the looks of Angela Langsbury/Jessica Fletcher (Murder She Wrote). Well, I did NOT go because it would dig up the past. Well, I wrote everything but now, I am pass that.. it took me more than 20 years to bury this.. I did it! I brought it up so you can see my experience.
You have every right to be a quiet person. You are good at keeping opinions to yourself, not to general public but you need to still talk about your situations with someone.. not fire alarms.. not this or that..
I am happy for you being happy but dont you want a car?? A house?? Kids??? Maybe you should consider getting an employment.. but before you do, work on some attitudes. When I am an employer and I already know you by reading what you have done or do.. that is all I can say... I refuse to say I am going to call you!! LOL! Just call when you are really ready.
Same goes with any employers, any churches, any clubs, any events, or any thing in your life.. Network yourself.. when you do, you will be surprised to see people will like you and who knows.. hire you! That is what I am trying to do with my business!!!
Well, I spend well more than 2 cents worth of advice and talk.. I just want to let you know God and we love you!!
I agree close the thread by the way , well said Dixie