Decisions, decisions - What to do??

[Mrs Bucket]

Hi everyone, it's been a while since I've been here. A whole semester has gone by. Three months to be exact. I love the program at George Brown College so much.

ALIP - American Sign Language Literacy Instructor Program, this program empowers me so much as I learn a lot about my own community and the Deaf Culture. The Deaf Community - everything about the community and the social dynamics of the Deaf Culture.

This program is the only program offered internationally as it has three courses offered in one same program. I am very proud to be a part of this program.

This makes my decision so hard as I am struggling with this personal decision to leave the program. You see, I am the only DeafBlind student in a class of 15+ Deaf/hearing sighted people.

I had to lobby over 6+ weeks to get a Deaf Interpreter (DI) at an academic setting and finally, I got the DIs. Two of them and they have been such a blessing. I am able to receive everything visually as ASL is a visual and gestural language.

I must admit I am emotional about my decision to leave the program because I waited such a long time to go to college and PAH! - this program was the perfect one for me to enrol into. My program director encourages me to do part-time studies and I would love to do it. I want to take a semester off to focus on my inner wellness.

You know the quote "Health is Wealth." - that is very important to me. A semester off to gather my thoughts, take care of myself emotionally, psychologically, physically and especially my one good eye.

I don't know why I need the validation, I suspect it is flawed logic. See this, "flawed logic", I learned this during the program. I even learned that I have to stop apologising as it is all part of systematic apologising that we all need to break free from.

Interesting eh? Oh this program makes my decision so hard because it's quite empowering, you see.

There I go again, validation and the flawed logic in this.

It's good to see you all and a very Merry Christmas to each one of you.

Big hugs!

 

[Berry]

Have missed you.

And I do so sympathize. It seems I have spent my entire life putting off what I really wanted to do in order to do what had to be done, until one day I look around and discover what I really wanted to do has never gotten done.

There is no "right" decision. There is only the right decision for you. I hope you find it.

 

[Mrs Bucket]

Berry,

Thank you SO SO SO much for the validation, gosh.. I really needed it very much. I spent the whole weekend crying my heart out because I'm 37 years old. I put off college for 20 years thinking I would do it "next year" and then "next year" came. The cycle repeated itself over and over. My vision dwindled to the point I only had 5% peripheral vision, I knew I had to go to college one way or another to feel accomplished and know I did it.

I am glad I did it and glad I know I tried my best. Part time studies seems to be the best option for me. I am very fortunate to have support from friends, families and people who posted in my Facebook - you all rock. Those who posted in my Facebook are members here in this site - you have no idea how much your support really meant to me and my husband.

Thank you so much.

 

[Jiro]

Bucket - I'm very happy that you're back!!!

yes I understand the rigor of academic journey and it's a serious business. being a part-time student is the best way to start it off especially for those who hasn't been to college for a while.

good luck on your difficult journey!

 

[Lissa]

I PM'ed you

 

[rockdrummer]

Hi everyone, it's been a while since I've been here. A whole semester has gone by. Three months to be exact. I love the program at George Brown College so much.

ALIP - American Sign Language Literacy Instructor Program, this program empowers me so much as I learn a lot about my own community and the Deaf Culture. The Deaf Community - everything about the community and the social dynamics of the Deaf Culture.

This program is the only program offered internationally as it has three courses offered in one same program. I am very proud to be a part of this program.

This makes my decision so hard as I am struggling with this personal decision to leave the program. You see, I am the only DeafBlind student in a class of 15+ Deaf/hearing sighted people.

I had to lobby over 6+ weeks to get a Deaf Interpreter (DI) at an academic setting and finally, I got the DIs. Two of them and they have been such a blessing. I am able to receive everything visually as ASL is a visual and gestural language.

I must admit I am emotional about my decision to leave the program because I waited such a long time to go to college and PAH! - this program was the perfect one for me to enrol into. My program director encourages me to do part-time studies and I would love to do it. I want to take a semester off to focus on my inner wellness.

You know the quote "Health is Wealth." - that is very important to me. A semester off to gather my thoughts, take care of myself emotionally, psychologically, physically and especially my one good eye.

I don't know why I need the validation, I suspect it is flawed logic. See this, "flawed logic", I learned this during the program. I even learned that I have to stop apologising as it is all part of systematic apologising that we all need to break free from.

Interesting eh? Oh this program makes my decision so hard because it's quite empowering, you see.

There I go again, validation and the flawed logic in this.

It's good to see you all and a very Merry Christmas to each one of you.

Big hugs!

I don't understand why you are leaving the program.

 

[Jiro]

I don't understand why you are leaving the program.

from her post -

I want to take a semester off to focus on my inner wellness.

You know the quote "Health is Wealth." - that is very important to me. A semester off to gather my thoughts, take care of myself emotionally, psychologically, physically and especially my one good eye.

 

[rockdrummer]

from her post -

Right I saw that but I guess I was thinking she can do both.

 

[Lissa]

Good luck!! It'll be good for you!!

 

[deafskeptic]

Hey Mrs. B! Missed you! Wish you luck in part time studies.

 

[Mrs Bucket]

Hugs Jiro!!

It's great to see you!

Good news! I just got off ooVoo with my professor/program director.. I am staying on the program full time however it is part-time studying. YAHOO!

I am so thrilled because there were accommodations that could be made so I can continue studying.

RD - Jiro is correct about something. I should have tried college part-time. I didn't realise the magnitude of full-time studying with only 5% peripheral vision. This program is fulltime. It is a 3 years course compressed into 15 months fast track. It is a very heavy course load, I must admit I bit off more than I could chew.

Now I realise this and I am just grateful I have very understanding professors which incidentally are Deaf and my peers are Deaf as well as hearing. I am just blessed to be in a Deaf-centric learning environment.

Thank you all for your support. You have no idea how much your support and feedback means a lot to me.

RD- I do understand why you ask the question ...

I don't understand why you are leaving the program.

Flawed logic, eh? Something I learned about in the program.. we all are guilty of it.

Hope this helps, RD.

 

[Lissa]

Hugs Jiro!!

It's great to see you!

Good news! I just got off ooVoo with my professor/program director.. I am staying on the program full time however it is part-time studying. YAHOO!

I am so thrilled because there were accommodations that could be made so I can continue studying.

RD - Jiro is correct about something. I should have tried college part-time. I didn't realise the magnitude of full-time studying with only 5% peripheral vision. This program is fulltime. It is a 3 years course compressed into 15 months fast track. It is a very heavy course load, I must admit I bit off more than I could chew.

Now I realise this and I am just grateful I have very understanding professors which incidentally are Deaf and my peers are Deaf as well as hearing. I am just blessed to be in a Deaf-centric learning environment.

Thank you all for your support. You have no idea how much your support and feedback means a lot to me.

RD- I do understand why you ask the question ...



Flawed logic, eh? Something I learned about in the program.. we all are guilty of it.

Hope this helps, RD.

So you're still on the 15 month course but you'll be attending and working on your studies part time?

 

[daystarnite]

Thank you SO SO SO much for the validation, gosh.. I really needed it very much. I spent the whole weekend crying my heart out because I'm 37 years old. I put off college for 20 years thinking I would do it "next year" and then "next year" came. The cycle repeated itself over and over. My vision dwindled to the point I only had 5% peripheral vision, I knew I had to go to college one way or another to feel accomplished and know I did it.

I've been putting off college since 2006. And I'm only 26 years old now. I kept chicken-out at the idea of attending a very tough school. Thinking I'm not smarting enough to handle it. I need to start thinking POSITIVE. And you are my inspiration! Mrs Bucket!

 

[Mrs Bucket]

Right I saw that but I guess I was thinking she can do both.

RD for that kick in the derriere.. really.. I needed that. You have no idea how much you are vital to my self-confidence. Thank you.

Good luck!! It'll be good for you!!

Thanks Lissa for your continued support, you know.. you're one of a kind. You've been supportive to me like Shel90, FriskyFeline in Facebook.

Hey Mrs. B! Missed you! Wish you luck in part time studies.

Hugs DS, now I know what you look like! Beautiful! You're not an old biddy like me!

So you're still on the 15 month course but you'll be attending and working on your studies part time?

Yup, I am still on the 15 months course only it will be delayed by a few months and yes I am working for the CHKC as well as doing my mentorship. You can imagine the additional stress I was going through. I will have an internship in the summer time. This is why part-time studying works best for me.

I've been putting off college since 2006. And I'm only 26 years old now. I kept chicken-out at the idea of attending a very tough school. Thinking I'm not smarting enough to handle it. I need to start thinking POSITIVE. And you are my inspiration! Mrs Bucket!

Aww, everybody is their own hero and inspiration. I had to do a lot of soul-searching to find my own self-confidence and believe me, it wasn't an easy journey. Really.. thank you.

 

[somedeafdudefromPNW]

Missed you Buckets. I am glad to see you back on the forum.

College is serious business. I don't know why people who have jobs put down students, but it's obvious they either forgot about their college experience or haven't went before. Anyway, college does require some serious dedication.

I would like to be a full-time student again, but I won't be able to handle the stress like I did once before because I want to hold down a job and everything at the same time. So, like you, I am going to have to go back part-time.

I don't see the process as a form of validation though. It's just getting your thoughts in order to do what you want to do. It helps me when I vent out.

Good luck on your endeavor! Whatever you decide to do, you will be a stellar student!

 

[KristinaB]

Mrs. Bucket-

I have missed you a bunch. I was gone for a while for family mess, but I came back and I am praying that you find the inner strength to get through your coursework. I don't think I could handle going back to school at this point and I applaud your tenacity. Take as much time as you need and know that we all are here to support you in your endeavours.

Man - did I get deep or what. Must be something in the air.

 

[Mrs Bucket]

Missed you Buckets. I am glad to see you back on the forum.

College is serious business. I don't know why people who have jobs put down students, but it's obvious they either forgot about their college experience or haven't went before. Anyway, college does require some serious dedication.

I would like to be a full-time student again, but I won't be able to handle the stress like I did once before because I want to hold down a job and everything at the same time. So, like you, I am going to have to go back part-time.

I don't see the process as a form of validation though. It's just getting your thoughts in order to do what you want to do. It helps me when I vent out.

Good luck on your endeavor! Whatever you decide to do, you will be a stellar student!

You said it all for me. I can relate with you. It is tough being a student - full time or part time. Finances, emotions, you name it.. they all play their own role.

Mrs. Bucket-

I have missed you a bunch. I was gone for a while for family mess, but I came back and I am praying that you find the inner strength to get through your coursework. I don't think I could handle going back to school at this point and I applaud your tenacity. Take as much time as you need and know that we all are here to support you in your endeavours.

Man - did I get deep or what. Must be something in the air.

HUGS, I missed each one of you. I enjoy this community very much. Each one of you contribute to this community in each your way. I really appreciate your thoughts and your support, really.

 

[rockdrummer]

Well just remember that if it doesn't kill you it will make you stronger. You have already invested much time and effort into this and if you keep at it you will be finished before you know it. Hang tough!!

 

[Mrs Bucket]

Well just remember that if it doesn't kill you it will make you stronger. You have already invested much time and effort into this and if you keep at it you will be finished before you know it. Hang tough!!

Just for being you.. Thank you!!

 

[~SG~]

Welcome back! that is great news that you can study part time. I do wish you good luck and do remember balance is a key.

I know being full time and part time student is tough. As I am currently studying part time.