I know the feelings. I have been with my ex husband, who I was married for 12 yrs even been gone through abusive, too. He was not honest to me, when my puppy found a woman's underwear under my bed. I got so hurt and suspect that he is up to something. I never told him what I found and all. Never told him til I see it in my own eyes finding the prove of real truth from what he is doing. Then one late night he worked at McDonald and came home late as He was supposed to be home at 11 pm, but came home 2 am in the morning.. He was trying to sneak in bed hopefully that I would not wake up. But I was wide awake and waiting for him to come home. I told him, where have you been ? He was acting weird and said oh I was at the lake and need some time to think of something. I was like what something in your mind ? He said just nothing. But confessed to me that he caught cheater couple were having sex at the lake as he saw it by accident.. HUmmmmm.. That sounds like he was having an affair.. When he tell me the stories about it, he said I knew those couple. They are having an affair and he knew that person is married. I got reallll funny guts feelings knowing he wasn't being honest to me. He even started getting online real late chatting with someone. I sneaked up one night and caught him masterbating in the real webcam of other woman, he was chatting with and she was masterbating in front of him on the web cam. I knew he was not faithful to me. He have been doing it over and over. He accused me of having an affair. But I didn't have an affair in my own home with this faithfully marriage. Til I finally separated from him several times and been with other men. He would say you have an affair and all that. I just let him go. Later after I left him for many reasons.. He was dating with my bestest friend, but I will not give out the name bec this person is also member of this A.Dcom. I warned her about him and all. She never listen to me til few months she moved in with him, while we were separated and that she was secertly enaged with him. Well, I let her go and told her that one of the day that she will learn her mistakes and will want me to be her friend. Month to month have passed.. She was going through what I went through and later he disappeared to out of state without her knowing. She got the strange feelings and that she decided to trip to see her mom, while he is out of state. But things didn't get along with her mom and family so she drove all the way home to be with him. When she came home.. She saw van parking up the drive way and never saw it before. So she walked in and found 3 women were chatting. She said who are you ? and all. They told their names and where they from and asked who is she ? She told them, I am Bill's Fiance. They were soo quiet and act weird. She noticed that the pictures of him and her are not there, the computer screensaver have changed and all. She asked them where is Bill ? They were sooo guilty and told her that he is in bedroom with other woman. So she walked up there and found him with other woman and asked him who is this woman and all. He was denied that it is his friend and trying to welcome them to spend the night was all. She had the weirdest feelings and said are you having an affair ? he looks nervous and said no. But she kept on push the button over and over til he lost it. He told her that they are going back to Okla tonight and she asked if she could tag along with him and them ? he told her no that she should stay home. So he asked her if he could borrow her car drive to Okla. She was too smart to say no. So the next day, she contact me through yahoo im and told me everythings and I told her that it is nothing that I can do about it. She begged me to come up and have a talk. So I went up to see her. I felt soo weird bec that was my home and my ex to be. I could not believe what he have done to her. But knew that will happen to her. So she packed up and left him the next day or 2. She brought my dog to me and told me that there is no one else to watch or feed him. So I got him with me. Couple months later the lady from Okla got pregant with Bill's baby. But we don't know if that was his or that lady's ex to be's baby. Longggg stories... I am thankful that I am divorced to him and had a wonderful marriage and got my best friend back together. We are so closer than we were before. So now that lady from Okla is married to him and she have to go through hell abusive life. Tisk.. We tried to warn her about him, she never listen. So nothing we can do about it and keep our hands off.
So If my man cheat on me in my own face, he will end up stick my shotgun in his arose and be shot. He will be forgiven, but will never forget and he will never have me again in this kind of relationship. Cheater will always keep cheating, no matter how much you gave him chances or forgive him, He will keep hurting you.
oh well. 
love ya sis and me too I am glad u are still my best friend. I dont know what i would do without you. 
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