What I am thinking about
I have missed a few days, and will try to catch up.. * Frisky Feline tight hugs to you. I know how hard it is having your kitty away overnight but please know I understand and wanted to express my hopes that your kitty will pull thru this, I really share your sadness. ** Lanna, you and I have never been close and I hope that can change I want to share with you my own family crises with substance abuse recovery and Bipolar disorder, I have a brother, I mention him often, he lives with me now and I love him. He left home when he was 14 I lost him for years. Then I was blessed and he came back into my life when I needed him most. Our MOM was dying. He had been "self medicating" for so many yrs with drugs and alcohol but had finally taken that last step and tried to kill himself. (as cruel as it sounds *Jillio is right it, sometimes takes something so drastic to get a loved one the help they need) He was taken to the Hospital in Danberry, Conn. and the psychiatrist who evaluated him, knew immediately he was BiPolar and Parinoid Schitzophenic. When he went thru withdraw there and began meds and treatment that is when he contacted me. I remember crying all the way there, shocked I could have lost him and thankful we were getting another chance. He came home with me and was a great help with my MOM. (We brought her home and took care of her ourselves until, we had to let her go) . I worry everyday about his addiction, will he use again and fall back into that downward spiral? I pray and meditate that will not happen. Now he takes his meds..funny, always brings them to me in his hand as if to say see it's OK today. Smile. I Love him so much and I understand the suffering of you and your family, and all who have loved ones who just do not want to take the meds they need so desperately. My Brother has been Clean and Sober and without a psychotic episode for 2 years now ( he did relapse and used drugs and lost everything just 2 years ago, after 8 yrs of doing well)) but he is back on track and with forgiveness in my heart I embrace him everyday, thankful to have him back in my life. Lana, your sister 15 needs you now desperately, who knows what she's being told. Your mom called you, she is reaching out,that's a beginning. I hope you can search your heart and somehow find the courage and strength to set your own needs aside just temporariy and help get your MOM the help she needs and be that person, everyone in your family is going to need. I will pray for you and yours. I send you my heartfelt love, and wish for Peace within you,,body, mind and spirit.
**For those of you talking about biopsy, I understand and encouage you to please see your doctor for anything unusual happening with your skin. I think I told you that I had my facial scar blasted with a lazar to fade it and it worked great. but there was a small area right below my bottom lip that they saw when they were working on my scar. 2 days ago I had it biopsied. it is almost healed over and I am nervously awaiting the results (7 to 10 days) they told me. I understand the fear in finding out anthing is happening to us that might result in extensive medical treatment. The biopsy was painless really and quick, It's the waiting now. I so admire all of you who took the step to have the biopsy done. and thank you to **Jiro for the sunscreen article. I would tell the moms out there to pick up a few Magazines and show your "gotta have a tan" son or daughter that the covers of alot of these top magazines show models who embrace the fair and natual skin they were blessed with....to be healthy and fair of face is what they should be striving for. Might work, for some reason our young women now adays are frying themselves on beaches and resembling rotissiere chickens in those stand up tanning booths...UGH...And **Loghead Congrats my friend you did it, I am proud very proud of you. Yeah, smiling, ***Shel...it's just a part time job right and it will not be forever..smile..still want to get together maybe later in the summer, please know I am thinking of you often and fondly..Peace To All
**On a personal note I am thinking that I am going to have to have my right knee repaired after all, when I return from my get-a-way next month, it was getting a bit better but lately has caused me severe pain and the MRI showed the meniscus is just torn more..so. It;s gotta be done.*****.BIG NEWS. I'm in LOVE, yes me, with a most amazing man. He is kind and thoughtful and intelligent, very attractive and sexy, loves nature as much as me and sends me flowers almost every day. He has had his share of pain with past relarionships but we talk everyday and things are heating up..laughing..He says he loves me...and we have even spoken of a future together. He is deaf, for those of you wondering and a bit younger. I am just walking my path,slowly, I'll keep ya posted...Love and Peace to all..Midnight..♥♥♥
"There's nothing you can do, that can't be done...Nothing you can see, that isn't shown..
There's nowhere you can be, that isn't where your meant to be...It's Easy..
All you need is Love, All you need is Love....Love is all you need" (TY FAB 4)
I hope your kitty will be okay and Royale and I are in deep thoughts with you and your cat.
to FF and her cat