Yes we've kissed and held hands but know that holding her hand wasn't my idea as she did try to hold my hand when we were in the movies and then looks at me all strange and smiled, saying that I'm hot and that she cares about me and loves me, etc...I know it's a damn good thing to hear, and I do really appericate of what she've told me, but honestly I haven't feel any real chemistry with her there and all so yeah I've actually told her afew times that we are just friends and nothing else, although we can still date some more, but just still see her as a friend and she's just not too much of my type, anyway but I still show her some respect as much as she deserve, as any real friend could do that.
speaking of fear of rejection, you might be right on that part since she said she was tired of being single all the time and all and then got kinda disapointed when I told her that we are just friends, so then she totally understands and won't push me anywhere (I hope!) so nothing else.
I've been rejected alot also but I don't beg or ask for pity like that...that just won't work and the way she did it on me just won't work either. So all I just want is us to be friends and that's all I can give her for now.
I would be seeing her again around the 4th of July since she invited me to her house for a BBQ cook out and check out the fireworks etc...and said that she have a surprise for me, etc...a surprise for me because she said that she cares about me and that I meant alot to her, etc...I was like ooooookay well thanks so I guess I have to find something nice for her as well but nothing too pricy or fancy so anyway she may have some kind of disorder I do not know what, but I know she've been taking some medication for it due to health problems and have some kind of side effects from the medication she takes, etc
I know she's a really nice person and all, but I just don't really feel anything from her as I've had from my ex so...I guess every girl out there is pretty different.