Um... being proud of deafness, count me OUT.
But accepting my deafness count me in.
Big difference.
Reason?
* Missing out so much stuff.
* Limitations.
* Unnecessary challenges.
* Communication breakdown.
* Getting judged in a negative way about my disability.
* Can't hear important sounds like fire alarm, emergency siren, baby crying or if someone got hurt, if natural disaster happened in my sleep or when my CI battery died I wouldn't know, and that's scariest thing ever.
* I want to be able to just walk up to hearing person and start conversating no problem or being able to have small talk and respond to people talking to me.
* 1000000 reasons I'm not proud to be deaf.
BUT I do love ASL. If its totally my choice I'd rather to be Hearing that know ASL. But I'm deaf so I accept it and try to lessen the effect of being deaf much as I can. Hence the CI to hear important sound in my waking hours, hear if people say excuse me or talk to me behind my back I'd acknowledge it and turn around to smile or point at my ear. Being able to understand people talking to me much better but I wish I can speak back but I'll work on my confidence to use my speech and practice to get it back in shape as for now CI's been wonderful help.
Also on the note, I'm not trying to be hearing! Why is it that if you get CI you were "trying to be hearing"??? I'm so tired of seeing this "I don't want CI cuz I'm proud to be deaf" but hearing aid is fine and automatically is acceptable but CI automatically mean to try to be hearing? Just stop doing this immature bs please.