Deaf With Schizophrenia

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In living with schizophrenia one of the most difficult moments is when you are very isolated. That is one reason the medicine is not as healthy as assumed. It tends to create claustrophobia. My family is dysfunctional because very divided about the source of the evil that deafened me. My mother has tried to claim that I was not tortured as a child. The fact that I am deaf is not what she claims. DOCTORS admit that the nerve injury and deafness are related, because she does not admit to torture she intensifies isolation, fear, trauma, and the harvest of cruelty that is allowing this to have happened, without even once being honest about it.
 
That would explain your bizarre posts. Hope you find the right treatment and medicine.
 
I think what the respondent means is that the idea of mild, manageable schizophrenia in an intellectual provides the cover story for the bizarre posts. Some might argue that bizarre events took place and this storyline was convenient to making them happen free from proper investigation. Who is going to investigate the statements of a person who can be used for journalizing while laughed at about what he has written?

I would argue that this avenue is at the root of a natural law framework for the origin of AIDS. I was deafened by enforcement of natural law when I allowed De De, who was twelve, herself master of the situation, to seduce me when I was thirteen. This is why I was deafened. The sex and death culture who deafened me went on to illustrate a war game about AIDS that justified it and even mandated that I be tested in line with the plan of action.

I think what question is being left to future generations to ask about the people who are authoring this atrocity, and a politics of extermination towards someone who has been tortured, meaning particularly the very strongarm Sean Ono Lennon and his prosecution force who have been like Chinese Communists in their violence and impugnity from questions about their mystique and inelegance about right and wrong, is: Do they know they're lying?

Do the people who read these posts realize and consciously lie regarding the way that Peter Gabriel authored a porn queen to give me her virginity that this was a cover operation for those who released AIDS?

Knowing that AIDS was in fact a Secret War of the Virgin is reality and it should be a topic of police consideration in arrest and prosecution, however police are very cornered by the effectiveness of the corporate right wing that Lennon and Gabriel organized.
 
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Yes I can see how someone with schizophrenia might not be believed if they went to the police, or whoever, about a crime that was committed against them.

However, your story is so bizarre and far fetched, and spans like decades, and you're forever adding more to it, that it makes it completely unbelievable. It is in fact so unfeasible that it is clearly a delusion, a product of your schizophrenia.

Lots of italics and bold usage to emphasis just how whacked everything is.
 
Honestly though, you know what the biggest deal breaker is? What lets us know that what you say is so crazy and you can't even recognize is it as crazy? The picture you posted...Jimmy and Jeanie, or whatever...In the caption of the picture you say you haven't seen her in twelve years and that the picture was taken last summer. Not you said twelve years in one post and you were with her last summer in some other thread. Like you lost track of what you said where. But you made a serious timeline foopah in the one post. ANd you can't even see that it doesn't make any sense.
 
The responsibility I live with to explain that the crime is ongoing, is part of a sex and death ritual abuse cult does in fact make complications an ongoing problem, but this limitation to my skill in giving testimony and the confusion that arises should not be used to explain away the material evidence.

My obligation is as a witness and if the material is stubborn and difficult then it is all the more imperative that I be up front about what I believe so that the truth about what happened can get through the wall of sound that those who are against knowledge put up.
 
deaftears said:
I think what the respondent means is that the idea of mild, manageable schizophrenia in an intellectual provides the cover story for the bizarre posts.
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For the sake of AllDeaf I've only selected a portion of what you've said. Your posts make it hard to feel sorry for you because you could just be a lying jerk. Assuming for a moment that you're not, you need to be on medication and possibly off AllDeaf....if for no other reason than to spare those that come here to share with others and be supportive.
 
I'll answer several asides directed at me. One regarding not seeing Jeannie, I think you'll agree that there's a difference between a passing visit that only lasts a few hours and the daily nurture in a friendship. I stopped myself from explaining that my visit to see Jeannie for a few hours did not really count, because it did count for a great deal, it just doesn't make up for the years I've had to take refuge in Seattle.

As for excluding someone who you think should be excluded from AllDeaf Chat I hardly see why. The thread is very clearly titled: Deaf With Schizophrenia. If you are that hostile to people living with conditions that are no more self-inflicted than deafness is, I think you need to be counseled by progressive reformers. Have you ever looked into the National Alliance for the Mentally Ill?

The Clubhouse program I belong to was established by people who have been victimized as cooperative, coping members of society living with, recovering from, dealing with mental illness.

Now you seem lastly to be very angry that I am not willing to attribute the sick, cruel, devious, unfair, belligerent, powerhouse things that Peter Gabriel did to me, which exploited my trauma, to my own problems.

That is because they did not originate with me.

My mother gave testimony to Sound Mental Health about Peter Gabriel. She wrote, "Gabriel wrote to Jim quite frequently for several years and I wouldn't be surprised if he used some of Jim's words on one of his songs as Jim claims."

Mother received an encomnium signed by the Mayor and City Council of Topeka for her career as an English teacher. I attended the Pennsylvania Governor's School for the Arts on a scholarship for Poetry. My grandfather Ward was a copy editor for the St. Louis Post-Dispatch and a Distinguished Citizen of Poplar Bluff, Missouri.

My father was a Naval Veteran of WW2, Lieutenant in the Pacific, led a Liberian Peace Corps mission and was Emeritus of History at Bethany College after a long and distinguished career at Pitt when he passed away.

I fail to see where my bringing up letters sent to me by Martha Gellhorn and Eugene Sledge, or the evidence I amassed about the origin of AIDS after becoming concerned as a Medical Library Clerk are such a topic of scorn for you.
 
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Now the idea that Peter Gabriel would abuse someone with virgins is supposed to be very funny and I can hardly fault you for trying to poke fun at it, but is it really meant in fun? The fact is that virginity is non-transmissive of AIDS so the idea that a martial law cult of virginity was documented around the murder of King and Lennon and their papers surfaced during an investigation into the origin of AIDS is very serious copy for those of us who feel that the truth of our national history is worth understanding.

As a result, the attempt to blame a child by making a smog machine of virginity which is what Gabriel did, is stunning for its remorseless accomplice. Here all of you are adults being told evidence was found proving AIDS manmade, not a shell-shocked child in the spotlights of a deer hunter, being caged and led to believe that random love letters were affection, and you are not blamed the way I was.

Evangelia Karmas crowed at me, "She told you what wuzzup." Lisa Miles bellowed, "You were given enough clues." Both of them were persecutors brought in through Chase, Mellon and Warhol to pull Gabriel's transfer of blame and cover operation so people didn't know about what he was doing FOR those who released AIDS on Mt. Desert Island.

Here instead of a child being blamed, "Why should YOU get another chance?" It is being spelled out in no uncertain terms for you as adults and you cannot get your mind around it without abusing me.

It's passing strange.
 
My great-grandmother had Schizophrenia. She passed away a few years ago after a long illness.
 
Does DEAF persons with "schizophrenia" have more "difficulty" in "surviving" than "hearing"?

Perhaps it seems "difficult" to surmise can one have "insight" into their "condition"?

Excluding computers-of course.
 
Deaftears:

You admit that you are schizophrenic.

You are aware that your own mind plays tricks on you.

If that is the case, why are you saying all those bizarre things if you are aware that it is all a figment of your own imagination?

It is akin to me seeing a shadow on the wall, and I know that the shadow was caused by the light passing around a vase in the opposite room, but I choose to believe that a monster is standing there causing it, and creating fictional stories to explain why that monster exists.

Get it?
 
Maybe you honestly misunderstand the situation. Letters were sent to me as a child which are objective. They weren't products of my imagination. No matter how many times I have read them they always say the same thing. I'll give you an example of their contents.

Gail Burstyn writes, "It's De De's birthday and exactly six years ago today Martin Luther King got shot. Coincidences happened a lot today, I think God must be watching over me." In other words, she correlates the shooting death of Martin Luther King to De De's birthday by a factor of six years and calls attention to coincidences. Then six years later on her birthday, that of Gail Burstyn, John Lennon was shot. The envelope reads, "I am the Walrus" and there's an obituary about "the story of the bird" ending, "is there music when we die?"

The problems are manifold. For one, they tortured me. My schizophrenia is an injury they caused. I have a ruptured facial nerve that testifies to the shocking political violence visited on me. Second these letters cannot be speaking about coincidences. They are planned. There are too many coincidences that add up.

They emerged during an investigation I conducted as a resigned Medical Library Clerk into a group that was trying to start a mandatory AIDS testing precedent case from a time predating appearance of the virus.

The girl's name, think of latin and root meanings:

Gail Carolyn Burstyn ~ Gay ill/carolling/bursting, like Christian armegeddonism.

My question is how can we have a society where the police instead of investigating and arresting the perpetrator make a psychological warfare farce, with taunting questions like yours directed at a brutally traumatized victim of torture?
 
Those that don't want to be helped....cannot be helped.

I'm done. Toodles.
 
Hey, Mac, you would talk about baseball here. See how much attention I get for discussing turbocharged cars :). You can do the same with baseball.
 
I don't mind talking about baseball, but not in a thread about discussing schizophrenia and whether:

A. the evidence in question is a product of the mind.
B. the interpretation of the evidence as a product of the mind is actually constructive criticism or just opportunistic destructiveness.

The question of schizophrenia and deafness in a case of murder isn't really conducive to talk about baseball, unless of course you want to go into the war game element that surrounded Midori Goto.

Then baseball is relevant.
 
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