I've been thru some very trying and damming times in my life.....even took meds for chronic depression/suicidial thoughts/hospitalization.....Then the realization that I was not the only one who was like this.....I started going out more....being around people....achieving something everyday, no matter what it was....I stopped taking meds many years ago, and feel good about myself.
could you be, like me, BiPolar? I am glad I did not listen to my drs. and start taking meds. I just learn to live with it but, like you, went through the suicidial thoughts often. Perhaps KristinaB is one of us too.