Whatever you feel like......... Anything goes! Part IX

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Sitting here on the bench at Ocean City's boardway enjoying this georgeous weather. The house my friend rented for all of us is beautiful and huge! Just having a great and relaxing time here. :) Using my pager to read AD while my son plays on the playground at the beach. :)
 
:wave: I am back...I had a bad day. But first yesterday was the annivesary of my cousin Crystal's death. She had been gone for 15 yrs. I missed her so much. :( Then today ugh wasnt a good day for me. I am running on 2 hours of sleep right now. I only slept from 7 to 9 this morning. sheesh!:eek3:

Hard as this is but It's over between me and my sweetie for good. I am broken-hearted but it is for best. I was pissed off that i did hit the cabinet with my hand. It did bleed and now its swollen. LOL it doesnt hurt, really. I am numb right now so who cares. It probably will tomorrow. hahah! Man I am twisted or insane? you be the judge.

At least my animals are happy to see me and i missed my computer, lol. I will be ok... Just give me few days to deal with all of this shits.

I havent cried.. i dont have any tears inside me to cry at all. Why is that? I must be cold? i even had a thought of running my car into the tree and end my life right there... this is not good. but whatever....

sorry for being like this but thank you for listening....:madfawk: this.
 
FC - I am sorry to hear what happened... you have our support here.. :grouphug:
 
Freaky Cat said:
:wave: I am back...I had a bad day. But first yesterday was the annivesary of my cousin Crystal's death. She had been gone for 15 yrs. I missed her so much. :( Then today ugh wasnt a good day for me. I am running on 2 hours of sleep right now. I only slept from 7 to 9 this morning. sheesh!:eek3:

Hard as this is but It's over between me and my sweetie for good. I am broken-hearted but it is for best. I was pissed off that i did hit the cabinet with my hand. It did bleed and now its swollen. LOL it doesnt hurt, really. I am numb right now so who cares. It probably will tomorrow. hahah! Man I am twisted or insane? you be the judge.

At least my animals are happy to see me and i missed my computer, lol. I will be ok... Just give me few days to deal with all of this shits.

I havent cried.. i dont have any tears inside me to cry at all. Why is that? I must be cold? i even had a thought of running my car into the tree and end my life right there... this is not good. but whatever....

sorry for being like this but thank you for listening....:madfawk: this.
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oh no! i am very sowwy that u and sweetie are over.. sigh.. i hate see u get hurt by men! grrrr
 
i been busy today, wash clothes and clean some apt... work on ILY Magnets more.. lol!
 
FC ... eventually you will cry sooner or later ... Yes, it does hurt but the heart will heal. :hug:
 
Pah kicked our old dumb dresser out! got that for free, so kicked that on the curb...

And got another one from friend..:) So much better but need to downsize the clothes to fit in...old one has 7 drawers and now ours is 6. Oh well!

So I'll have to go back and clean some more grr!
 
i wrote this.. its a draft as i am not done..


It hurts.


every time my heart beat it hurts.
that it feel like im dying..
i'm carrying lot of pains inside.
oh it hurts so badly..

I am sinking into darkness- no where to go ..
I want to die... so badly that it hurts
I am so confused that I am losing my mind.
every time my heart beat it hurts.

i need to be set free of the pains.
I kept thinking why?
I have run out of answers.
I guess i will never know.

Ohh why does it hurts so much????
 
JClarke said:
FC - I am sorry to hear what happened... you have our support here.. :grouphug:
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Thanks

TweetyBird said:
oh no! i am very sowwy that u and sweetie are over.. sigh.. i hate see u get hurt by men! grrrr
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i know. men sucks, period.

Matilda said:
FC ... eventually you will cry sooner or later ... Yes, it does hurt but the heart will heal. :hug:
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i dont know if i can cry. i have been hurt numerous times in the past. i am sick and tired of this. all i know it hurts so much... thanks for the hugs

i didnt post alot of details but u can read my blog so u will understand what happened but just a short summary, ok.
 
FC - please don't even think about it. Time heals the heart, it wasn't meant to be, although it still hurts. If your having those kinds of thoughts, please seek help immediately. Don't leave your son without a mother.

If you want to chat, you know I'm here.
 
Dixie said:
FC - please don't even think about it. Time heals the heart, it wasn't meant to be, although it still hurts. If your having those kinds of thoughts, please seek help immediately. Don't leave your son without a mother.

If you want to chat, you know I'm here.
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really whats the use. really I havent seen tj for long time. I lost him. nothing i can do to make that someone happy. then this. and more. so screw this. thats why i am like this. there is no hope. none.
 
Freaky Cat said:
really whats the use. really I havent seen tj for long time. I lost him. nothing i can do to make that someone happy. then this. and more. so screw this. thats why i am like this. there is no hope. none.
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Don't worry about making TJs dad happy - worry about TJ.
There is hope, this is just 'another guy' and nothing more. There will be others to come along. You have so much spunk and energy, why waste it on some random oak tree?

I'm not a qualified counselor, but I am willing to listen and talk. Please know that you've got friends who do care about you and don't want to see you hurt yourself.
 
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HANG IN THERE GINGER!
 
Freakycat, I'm sorry that you had to go through the rough times, but it will be ok overtime. :hug:

By the way, I just got home from work. :)
 
Dixie said:
Don't worry about making TJs dad happy - worry about TJ.
There is hope, this is just 'another guy' and nothing more. There will be others to come along. You have so much spunk and energy, why waste it on some random oak tree?

I'm not a qualified counselor, but I am willing to listen and talk. Please know that you've got friends who do care about you and don't want to see you hurt yourself.
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How I am not there for TJ. I dont see him? I dont even know if he is ok or not? I havent heard NONE zip from TJ's dad. I got to see TJ for one day last sat. thats it. will i see TJ tmw and keep him for the weekend? I dont know. like the last month i wasnt able to keep TJ due to drama. blah blah. there are more to this story but not gonna post this on anyway. he gotta know i am not perfect. even he is not perfect. heck no one is.

Dixie said:
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HANG IN THERE GINGER!
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thanks.
 
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