20 hours later......life is not the same and slowly, I'm recovering from the worst breakup ever. My mind is numb and my body seems like it can't move well. I ask myself, "why me at this point in life?" There is something to be learned from this...
What happened is that after I found out about the breakup in the morning, I wanted to get my mind off of it and watched tv. Coincidentally, I saw 2 different scenes that had the lady telling the guy that she wants to break up with him. I was like, "this is the last thing I need!" (deja vu moment)
So I went to take a nap and it felt like a coma where my body didn't move for 2 hours. I woke up and went to school to finish my finals. Things seemed to be ok and I apologized to everyone. Then I went home. When I got to the bus and left there to walk home, I saw 2 different couples being together in love, like she and I once was. (deja vu moment #2) Seeing them be happy like that made me so mad that I wanted to know why this was happening to me, being single once again. 4 hours later, I tried my best to relax and rest my mind for a bit.
And now, I understand that there is a lesson to be learned from this.
I may get used, abused, hurt, skewered, screwed, or burned by women, but I will always love them as long as I live. That is my personal conviction and nothing will change that.