That I'm going through a huge range of emotions right now. I'm moving back in two weeks. I don't know what to think anymore. I just wish I had someone to talk to about it right now. My friends in California are sleeping.
I just hope it'll be the best decision I've ever made for myself. My heart flutters and then just drops down to the ground once I start thinking about how drastic it has been, quite a whirlwind journey. Am I making a mistake? I ask myself so many questions, starting to wonder if I'm even sane. Moving to California in the middle of wintertime? 3000 miles away? What was I thinking? But it has to be done. I'm doing it for myself, to regain who I once was before I met a particular someone who put me through hell.
I'm just scattered right now. I just hope that my journey will inspire others who went through the same situation. Sometimes it's better to just drop everything and start doing it for yourself. Even if it means changing jobs, new state, etc. I'm just grateful to have friends from past who are still there for me. I didn't lose everything after all. I still have a home to come back to.