Were do i belong ?

[Vorsia]

AFTER! Staying up all night im thinking okay as a child i had single side deafness really never botherd me so i really wouldnt call myself deaf ..my right ear had mild loss so i really wasn't hard of hearing eather i would hear pretty well never really botherd me,so here i aim now with sever to profound loss struggling to fit in the deaf community.. where i will sign i have no choice i don't want i a CI .. God bless those who do have them i don't do good on the operating table, well anyway i feel like im rambbling here ....i feel fine now with the loss i just feel alone i don't fit in any where.. there really no young late deafend people who want to learn to sign its, really sad how ..they are to lazy to try to learn another way to communicate ....im up thinking anyone feel the same way?...i love you alldeaf....my family dosn't care my mom just keeps saying what new with her health, there always something..was i ever truly late deafend or im i just not being true to myself with the loss i always new had and my mom always acting like nothing wrong..so guess i grow up to be like her, when im sick i tend to wait to last min to go in..and things like that just really overwhelmed with all of this m,i met i do get along well lip reading .. no one knows im deaf unless i say something you cant lip read everything though..i also have three small kids i have to teach them to sign too ..

 

[sallylou]

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Vorsia, I'm losing my hearing as an adult. What you're feeling is completely normal and many people here understand. Go read the late-deafened thread. You'll find it very helpful. See you on that thread later. ;-)

 

[deafdyke]

Actually if you had mild loss, you ARE HOH. If you'd had single sided deafness with a hearing ear, you would have been mildly HOH..but you had bilateral loss.....and I know how you feel. Stupid hearing people for assuming that HOH kids aren't really deaf.

 

[Vorsia]

Not hoh enough as child..

But I think it was also as a children that I would meet as, a youngster that.would say your not hoh enough in a crowd of kids.but now as my loss is deafness ...I have no speech discrimination 0% so hearing aids will do me no good ..and guess your right I was hoh when I was young.no one cared..doctor always said I didn't need aids so I was raised hearing only later to become, deaf. with very little signing abilities...I was put in in mainstream class thinking I was learning disabled, and not one said a thing you know its saddens me .ur

 

[Angel1989]

You fit with me!!!!!

But I think it was also as a children that I would meet as, a youngster that.would say your not hoh enough in a crowd of kids.but now as my loss is deafness ...I have no speech discrimination 0% so hearing aids will do me no good ..and guess your right I was hoh when I was young.no one cared..doctor always said I didn't need aids so I was raised hearing only later to become, deaf. with very little signing abilities...I was put in in mainstream class thinking I was learning disabled, and not one said a thing you know its saddens me .ur

We will get through this together, ok? My hearing loss is gone, haring aids no benefit. So I also had a very sudden change. I'm lost. I can't communicate well with others. Praying I can find an ALS tutor. Like you asked me, we will definitely Skype as soon as I can. Don't worry, be happy!!!

 

[Vorsia]

We will get through this together, ok? My hearing loss is gone, haring aids no benefit. So I also had a very sudden change. I'm lost. I can't communicate well with others. Praying I can find an ALS tutor. Like you asked me, we will definitely Skype as soon as I can. Don't worry, be happy!!!

Okay im feeling alot better today, doing some cleaning.

 

[deafdyke]

Vorsia, it's not that you're "hearing"....it's that you got immersed into the hearing world b/c dumb hearing people thought that HOH kids= hearing. Damn if ONLY I could get those auditory verbal audists to realize that complete and total immersian in the hearing world SUCKS.....HOH kids are just as deaf as they are hearing!

 

[deafdyke]

and you belong with US! There are TONS of people here who grew up oral and mainstream and total immersian in the hearing world! Your experiance is very simlair....and god....I just wish I could throttle those goddamn AVTers who think that dhh kids will experiance all the upsides of the hearing world, and none of the downsides. Parents who are lurking (and we know there are tons of you) THIS is what happens when you try to immerse your kid entirely in the hearing world. Yes, we can "hear" with hearing aids/CIs.....but artifical hearing does not make a hearing kid.....and I say that as someone who learns aurally!!!!

 

[Audiofuzzy]

Vorsia, you are what you feel in your heart you are.

I sense deep down you do feel deaf, however growing up you adjusted to the hearing ways of living, hearing environment so felt "hearie",

so now you find a total switch to being deaf and Deaf a bit unnerving.

I suppose you just need more time to get used to the transition from a hearing world to the deaf world.

But it is not a given that once you immerse yourself wholly into
the Deaf world, Deaf culture and deaf life in general
you'll find it it's the ONLY way for you.

What you might discover after a while is that you actually
still belong to both words,
because for a large part of your life you grew up feeling "hearing"
but for this NEW present part of your life it's a Deaf world, too.

I can compare it to the life of an immigrant - the old familiar home country
is gone, is no more,
the new one feels foreign, unfriendly, unfamiliar but it's the one
you are in now,
the one you must make your life now for yourself.
It will get better, it gotta.

Once you master ASL and will build up a solid circle of a deaf friends,
you may surprise yourself going fluidly back and forth between your old life and a new one feeling comfortable in both.

And don't worry about CI for now.
You don't want it now, maybe someday, maybe never, and let's leave it at that.


Fuzzy