I had a cyst removed from my right ear when I was 17. Just before, my Family went nuts and made me think I was dying of something like cancer but not cancer. I was all in my Bible like trying to save the then twisted souls of me and my then boyfriend, a total God questioner who liked using the F-word. It was crazy and I began to hate doctors for awhile because, they were like the undertaker. But, I didn't die which is more than I can say for my relationship. Two years, after kicking my butt though high school, I'm now in college and at last Ear, Nose, and Throat says hearing test time. I knew it. I'm failing!There's closed captions on my TV. People are getting tired of me saying huh. And, to top it off, I had embarrassed myself giving out the answer to a quiz question not knowing it was quiz and told a speaker I couldn't hear him while the teacher said he was perfect. My Grandma gave me a sound amplifier that I quickly throw away. Now, in the office, I sat thinking, now knowing ASL101, waiting and signing hard of hearing. The Doctor points for the hearing test to begin and my hands are clammy but, with my tummy feeling like I'm going to puke the test starts with a nurse pointing, colors flash red and blue. She says, balloon and ball and I repeat sort of stuttering. Echos pass though my ears and I still don't know if she was looking for words so, I raise my hand though most the test to echos and bumps in the room. I feel like I might pass out and look for a soft piece of black and brown floor and closed my eyes listening to bumps, raising my hand to them, it starts to sound like music, perhaps, they've stopped and turned on a Beatles song. Maybe, a hour and it's over. The Doctor leads me to a small room and hands me a chart and says gladly, which I don't understand totally ready to be deaf if need be, "You got 10db and that's in the normal range." I said(dizzy),really(x2). It was like I was drunk on sound. I scheduled another appointment and left to the bathroom to be sick after, thought about going to the ER but, just took the bus and train and not the tram home while watching people with check-out forms. I never returned but, am still scheduled for this September. I'm no longer covered for hearing tests.
