As I ve been very active church member for a long time, but now I haven't. Sadly to say I have sinned against the church which hurt me as I did to others. What I did doesn't justify what the church members has done against me and also each others. Most of the gossipping about me are not true than it is. There's truth and lies mixed in. Sadly to say, they can judging me what I have done, but even tho before what I made a mistakes, is that the sins of the church is gossipping. They think its natual way to do it, but I have hard time believing in that. What I read the Word shown me that gossipping is very wicked and inexcusable. Several times in the bible talked about it especially, book of Proverbs, James and also seeing Galatians chapter 5 vs 19thru 21 described it, two faces, dishoenset, backstabbing, act nice but talk evil about the person u falsely greeting, gosspping and etc. Where's the fruit. I remember past several years and still doing, members praising the Lord when a person confess his or her sins and seeking Gods forgiveness, but the members the one that hurt that person but never asking forgivness and thinking they haven't sin, and I say that's a tragic. Christians, all of us need a repentance. As Jesus said, if u lead ur brother into sin, its better get a millstone and wrap around ur neck and throw urself into the sea, meaning also if u gossip behind his or her back and nothing work out and lead him or her sin, the gossipper will pay conswequences. Understand this, God is a loving Father thu Jesus Christ, He paid our sin debt in full. We need each other, even tho I live in gay lifestyle, not mean is happy what I'm doing, but problem lots of christians adding up sins and thinking gay is worse, what change the society is Gods love thru us. But condemning people of their sins which the sin u didn't commit is wrong. U have sin against the Lord likewise if u hurt someone by gossipping and leaking to tell someone else which a person wants a confidence and prayer support. Sadly, the hearing pastor for the deaf has been destroying the church, by giving out juicy details of my sins even before I fall intosins which he constantly said 'I'm to busy or I have other plans' which devastate me. When I keep asking for help. Pastors, are u truly living for the Lord in obedience or u being a drama preacher? The shephard who ignore the cries of the sheep will suffer consequences. Don't be a wolf in sheep clothing. Yes, I cry out to God for my sins and asking for forgiveness of immoral lifestyle and asking God for guidance and yes, praying for power of forgiveness for each other and to God. If u said something about other person life that hurt, u need to ask him or her for forgiveness. Its time to stop being opinion and listen to the hurts. The guy who I live with doesn't mistreating me at all. I have been sharing about Gods love and seeing Gods view and the worlds view are big difference. He's been hurting by the church by condemning him. I told him even churches sinned against the Lord. Some of my members hasn't been really nice to him. I ask God for wisdom to lead him to know You(Lord) and as he may see of his own to give his life to the Lord and lately what I shared with him there is many things he have never thought of. Not only that non church goers who are christians and non christians never thought of. One was saying about particular church she called that church a murderer. Which is many churches have been a murderer, hatred, gossipping, refuse forgive and etc is a murderer. Have u thought of that? Bring ur brothers and sisters of the Lord who is struggling, hurting and poor health back to ur family, bec church is for sick spiritually and also who never receive christ, church is not for perect healthy people. Many missing the point on particular verses even tho plain balck and white, but missing the point, look at king david and yes I cried out forgiveness remember rest of his life he fall all kinds of sins, but constantly crying out to God. All of us can't see a person inside. There are sincere believers who sin against the Lord and still crying out to God. I keep seeing gossipping been winning the battle and the forest fires burning out of control while fire chief are too busy and has no time putting out the fires. Greatest of all we need is genuine love, and put the end of drama and be real. As is wriiten several times in the Bible, if u see ur brother sin, bring him back. Also confess to one another, not one person confessing all of the believers, the bod of christ. Gossip break the unity. Don't cutdown on flesh and blood but against satanic forces. The battle of the Lord is victors after victors, bring the wounded soldiers in. My prayes for all of us