November Gypsy
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I have been, for the last month or so, laboring under the delusion that I was to get new hearing aids. The ones I have are no longer working for me, and I badly need new hearing aids of the 'behind-the-ear' type. I had applied to a program here in KY that helps provide hearing aids to people, like myself, who cannot afford them. My audiologist assured me that I would qualify, and being a fairly optomistic individual, I believed him, and I do think he believed it himself. The long and short of it is that I received a denial from the program today. I am in that uncomfortable place where I am too poor to buy them but not quite poor enough to be helped, apparently...though we just scrap by.
I am devestated. My baby girl is saying 'dada' and I cannot hear her. That's all I want, I swear. Then I will be entirely deaf with all grace and decorum. I realize that I will probably be entirely deaf within a year, and that no hearing aid is going to fix that, but I am heartbroken anyway. Heartbroken and a bit angry. Angry at myself for letting me get, again, very over-excited about something like this when there was no promise it would work out. I want to hear my baby's first word. Damn it.
Anyway, I know lots of you have never heard your baby, so please bear with me on this. I just feel like time is so very precious right now...Botts very kindly gave me a site for new programs to try that I will be tackling in the morning, right now I need to rant a little and try to readjust myself. Thanks for letting me get it out, as it were.
I am devestated. My baby girl is saying 'dada' and I cannot hear her. That's all I want, I swear. Then I will be entirely deaf with all grace and decorum. I realize that I will probably be entirely deaf within a year, and that no hearing aid is going to fix that, but I am heartbroken anyway. Heartbroken and a bit angry. Angry at myself for letting me get, again, very over-excited about something like this when there was no promise it would work out. I want to hear my baby's first word. Damn it.
Anyway, I know lots of you have never heard your baby, so please bear with me on this. I just feel like time is so very precious right now...Botts very kindly gave me a site for new programs to try that I will be tackling in the morning, right now I need to rant a little and try to readjust myself. Thanks for letting me get it out, as it were.