Memory of my Late Father: Today

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AngelWolf

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First of all... I just want to say something for my other topic that I was withdrawal from deaf world... was just that I don't use AIM, Yahoo or MSN with anyone very much due to my work that keep me busy lately as well as some weekend... I guess I like being alone but I do love to read here in Alldeaf very much and I love it!! I really enjoy so that was hard for me to keep away from it lol... seem that they are like deaf news!! :) So I guess I can come and go with or without post...

And now to share this with u all...Memory of My Late Father: Today...

Today is Sunday, 14th of January, the year was 1979 (28 yrs today) he died of cancer at around 4 pm while I was in college in Idaho and I was really upset for that umm oh geez, I can't even spell but he is in charge for deaf ppl to be enorlled or something like that as well as for hearing, too... anyway, his name is Jim (can't give out his last name) told my mother (after she called and told him to let me know abt my father's passed away) that he did not want me to go home so early as I got in on the first day of school!! That got my mother upset but I had "Mother" who was in the charge of the Dorm for the women... to call my mother abt my father and learned that he has passed away on Sunday, (I was at school the next day Monday!!) at 4 pm and I got so upset and hurt and wanted go home so I did and had let mom know that I would be coming home the next day (Tuesday) anyway!!

Later found out that mom told me of what Jim told her!! Grrr, I have never forgive him for that! It was so hard on me and mom for a long time but harder still for me but now I am okay since then... still thinking of him often and how he has taught me few things... I guess that wasn't enough as I need him so bad! :(

I did talk with my mother abt this and she was so surprised that I remmy everything that day!! She even couldn't remmy lol but like to talk abt it, to remember my fahter and her husband... :) I missed him alot and I have my pix of him on the wall right in front of me... :)

At that time, when we find out he has cancer, it was very hardest hit on my brother cuz he couldn't sleep for 4 days!! But of course for all of us, too but for my brother was worse one! Man, poor him but I slept ok werid and yet in daytime, it was hard for me cuz I kept crying a lot so bad and confused... yikes! It was even hardest for all of us cuz of xmas came that day while my father was in the hossy in UT that time but he was in coma...

I had tears came down just thinking abt it.. :) But I know he has watched over us but more to my brother cuz both of them are very strong bond as I have for my mother... *gulp* Anyway... though like to share this with u all...
 
Aw I'm very sorry to hear about your father sweetie... :(
 
I am sorry to hear about your father . My grandpa also died in 1979 and I miss him ,as well :( I was four years old but I remember him .. In the end, it is life and we cannot do anything about losing our relatives :(
 
Moo.. like I say in other forum, ya must be thinking of your dad in a good way and it is good to remmy the good and bad times with your dad and more...
 
Truly My deepest sorrow for your father passed away long years ago from 1979's.. He will be always watched you everyday... You'll be okay and still remember him good or bad times... He love you... not going forget you...
*smile*
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Northstar said:
Moo.. like I say in other forum, ya must be thinking of your dad in a good way and it is good to remmy the good and bad times with your dad and more...
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Thanks, Sharky, that was why cuz of u and ur father reminded me, so I shared this and help me to remmy with my father like GA and U said good and bad times... yea very true....

Thanks everyone! :) :hug:
 
Aww thats nice thought to think of your father like that. I know how you feel losing ur father to cancer as I lost my father to AIDS in 87 and my stepdad to prostate cancer last year. I remember that day when I found out my dad had passed away. I cried and cried..it was hard for me too.. I was only 14 at that time.. :( and for my stepdad it was hard on me too cuz he was good to us and to my mom.. They were childhood sweethearts.. sigh.. Thank you for sharing the story with us. I am sure it was hard for you to express your grief. but at least you have good memories of your dad so dont lose that.. :) Here is my hugs :hug:
 
Oh yea i remma that you told me about ur dad.. but wuld like said i m sorry heard happen to ur dad mom (angelwolf) but glad that you are alway memory of ur dad no matter what bec He really love you that much so hang in there ok :hug:
 
Thanks!

:ty: everyone.... yea I am fine... glad to have some good memory of my late father... I loved him very much... he was 54 yrs old same as I am lol but not the age but the err umm born lol... sighs.... once again :ty:
 
It's always hard to go back in 'time' when a loved one or family member had just died...yet, reflecting back to that day and moment...it can give us the encouraging strength to continue to vividly remember such good memories, allowing any of us to move on while in grief or state of healing...even when something good in relation to the deceased is being carried out or done, peace and closure paves the way to 'move on'. There may be times when such an event bring back up old wounds, the pains, etc., it is time like 'now' that can hopefully allow any of us to 'forgive' any of those who may have conflicted such wounds upon us due to the event of a loved one or family member passing on.

As for you, I do hope you're able to cherish the great wonderful memories you've had with your own father...to keep his ways 'alive' through your own actions in the things you do in your life...continue to be strong, hang in there. :)




~RR
 
RR... thanks!! That is very true... that was why I have had it for a long time... always in my mind... just that it was just hard to belive that he is not here anymore but gone.....not gone but still in my heart!! :) :ty: RR

Every since I got job and I love it so much that I feel good and happy for a long time that is what I gotten thinking of my past.....like u said "encouraging strength to continue to vividly remember such good memories".. I think that is what I was doing for sometime cuz of my work have given me strength that I never have from my old job at all.....cuz of my job at Borders is very strong frendly and love! That why I love it so much!! I am very happy and feeling good everyday! :) But I do still sad at though of my late father from yesterday but today I am fine...

Gn everyone ....caio! :ty:
 
Very true, RR... :(

AngelWolf, I'm very sorry to hear about the loss of your beloved father... :( I know how you feeling because I lost my sister to drugs last May 2006. I keep her in good memory what good or bad times we have during childhood.
 
I'm so sorry, AngelWolf. Remember good times you had with him when you were younger. You and your dad must have had close relationship. His love for you stays in ur heart forever. Hugs!
 
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