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WhisperHorse

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Just wanted to let you guys know that Im still alive here.

I have alot going on with me and my life right now. There's alot up and down, but it's more like down at mostly of time. Im very happy with my daughter lately but, at same time Im very sad too. Because of my deafness, I couldn't hear her laughing or crying or anything like that. I did talk with my mom about the hearing aids and ceclor implant. I found out that I couldn't have the hearing aid or EVEN ceclor implant because Im very deeply deaf than everybody in the world that most doctors ever met before. They are too afraid if they go ahead to do surgery on me because there's alot effects plus, what if when surgery is done and I will never hear still? There's too many questions about my deafness because Im the first person who is different deaf person, not same other deaf people that they meet lately. I don't talk or read the lips that very well. I am depend on sign language and writing the paper back and forth, that's it. But, my mom told me once that she is very proud of me because I'm very rare deaf person to her because of what doctor said to her about my deafness and don't talk or read the lips that well but I still get a best job than my family does. I'm pretty surprised to her comment about me getting a best job than my family does. I don't mean to show off or anything like that. Just need to vent out because I look at it and it's not fair to me for not having some to hear like you guys do/can. Hmm, there's too many things that happened in my life right now. Even today, when I drove with my daughter to my old house where I used to live in, I miss that house and I miss my old life. Oh boy, I do really have up and down alot since. Also, I'm looking forward to having a HUGE break from everything(not from my daughter) on this Monday, I will be at my best friend's house to just hanging out and having fun. So, sort of feel better to vent out in here but not enough for me. So, hope I will feel better more once I come back to home. =D so let me add two pictures up in here to showing you guys.

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My daughter, Alexanderia and I on August 21, 2008 when she became 3 months old.

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Alexanderia and I again.

Right now, she's 14 weeks and one day old. Last visit at doctor, she was 12 lbs 3 oz 25 inches. She's wonderful baby, everybody had saying that they want her and I was like, nope she's M-I-N-E. =) That's all I want to say in here, so bye everybody. :wave:
 
Bye WhisperHorse. You and your baby are both looking very good. I hope your time off leaves you feeling better soon too.
 
awww, i know how you feel being able not to hear even with the technology out there cant help you. You told me about that on the instant message a while ago. Good luck on ur behalf getting a break for a while. :hug:
 
So beautiful of you both! :D :D


I knew about children's voice. One of my families. He was heavy sobbing >front of me and other families at dinner :shock: He told them that he felt so bad and sad that my Girl’s daddy, and I cannot hear their voices. :aw:
 
yea i do undy how ur feeling abt that.. and ur daughter is grow up fast wow... she is so beautiful as u!
 
AWWW! Lexi! she's getting big and soo cute!!! :) OFC she is YOURS! ;)

Just think positive for you and for your daughter. :)

I am sorry that you cannot get hearing aid or CI. :( :hug: BUT did you have a hearing test to take a test?

WhisperHorse said:
Just wanted to let you guys know that Im still alive here.

I have alot going on with me and my life right now. There's alot up and down, but it's more like down at mostly of time. Im very happy with my daughter lately but, at same time Im very sad too. Because of my deafness, I couldn't hear her laughing or crying or anything like that. I did talk with my mom about the hearing aids and ceclor implant. I found out that I couldn't have the hearing aid or EVEN ceclor implant because Im very deeply deaf than everybody in the world that most doctors ever met before. They are too afraid if they go ahead to do surgery on me because there's alot effects plus, what if when surgery is done and I will never hear still? There's too many questions about my deafness because Im the first person who is different deaf person, not same other deaf people that they meet lately. I don't talk or read the lips that very well. I am depend on sign language and writing the paper back and forth, that's it. But, my mom told me once that she is very proud of me because I'm very rare deaf person to her because of what doctor said to her about my deafness and don't talk or read the lips that well but I still get a best job than my family does. I'm pretty surprised to her comment about me getting a best job than my family does. I don't mean to show off or anything like that. Just need to vent out because I look at it and it's not fair to me for not having some to hear like you guys do/can. Hmm, there's too many things that happened in my life right now. Even today, when I drove with my daughter to my old house where I used to live in, I miss that house and I miss my old life. Oh boy, I do really have up and down alot since. Also, I'm looking forward to having a HUGE break from everything(not from my daughter) on this Monday, I will be at my best friend's house to just hanging out and having fun. So, sort of feel better to vent out in here but not enough for me. So, hope I will feel better more once I come back to home. =D so let me add two pictures up in here to showing you guys.

lexinme2.jpg

My daughter, Alexanderia and I on August 21, 2008 when she became 3 months old.

lexinme.jpg

Alexanderia and I again.

Right now, she's 14 weeks and one day old. Last visit at doctor, she was 12 lbs 3 oz 25 inches. She's wonderful baby, everybody had saying that they want her and I was like, nope she's M-I-N-E. =) That's all I want to say in here, so bye everybody. :wave:
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Aww your baby is so adorable. Glad that she is all yours! ;)

I can understand how you feel about your deafness and all. I know it is not easy on some people. You are not alone to feel this way. You have AD friends here who will be there for you when ever you need them. I am sure your daughter can share the sounds with you when she gets older. You can ask her to share her world with you. She is your love. She is all your world! :D

You are soo lucky to have her in your life. She is soo precious! :hug:
 
I am sorry u feel that way.

A blind friend told me once ..."Do not feel sorry for yourself because you cant hear the cries and laughs...at least you can see her beautiful smile." My friend helped me realize it wasnt the end of the world that I couldnt hear my daughter's cries or laughs...I can see her beautiful smile while my blind friend cant but she can hear her cries and laughs while I cant. Sometimes, we cnat have it all..best to focus on the positives instead of dwelling on the negatives making us feel depressed.

We just got to count our blessings so hope that helps.
 
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you need to feel so lucky to have Lexi in your life and of course she is YOURS!!!! just hang in there ok and enjoyed your visit with your friend smile
 
Thanks for keeping in touch with us at AD. I enjoyed your sweet pictures that you included. :)

You're experiencing a lot of changes to your life, your body, and your emotions now. Having a baby is a strong big change. It might take you some time to get used to the changes. Hang in there. We friends at AD support you, and we'll be here when you come back.

If things get overwhelming, don't be afraid to ask for help. I will pray for you. :hug:
 
Reba said:
Thanks for keeping in touch with us at AD. I enjoyed your sweet pictures that you included. :)

You're experiencing a lot of changes to your life, your body, and your emotions now. Having a baby is a strong big change. It might take you some time to get used to the changes. Hang in there. We friends at AD support you, and we'll be here when you come back.

If things get overwhelming, don't be afraid to ask for help. I will pray for you. :hug:
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Ohhhh u are right..I didnt think about this issue.

I agree with Reba...pls take it easy and ask for help if u are feeling overwhelmed and down. I have been there after the birth of my firstborn. It was tough.
 
hey Whisper - awesome baby you got there. she's got your eyes and cheeks. hey why don't you try this... put your finger on her vocal cord or chest and feel the vibration of her sound. hope that will make you feel better
 
LakeTahoe said:
AWWW! Lexi! she's getting big and soo cute!!! :) OFC she is YOURS! ;)

Just think positive for you and for your daughter. :)

I am sorry that you cannot get hearing aid or CI. :( :hug: BUT did you have a hearing test to take a test?
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Thanks.

Im trying to think postive for myself and my daughter.

My last test was when I was 12 years old, they still says can't. But, my mom and I will try to take a test for last time. Let's see what they will say, if still can't so it shows that I'm different one. :(
 
Thanks everybody for posting in here.

I will be fine once I go out on MOnday and return back maybe on next monday, I'm not sure.

Thanks everybody again. I will come back and respond to your posts. :grouphug:
 
Awww soo beautiful baby you have, I understand how u feel about not able to hear baby cry or laughing. Also I remember I went thru baby blue for few months till my hormones back to normal (almost).

I suggest you don't give up on CI, go get another second opionion with different dr. I know some deaf who are worst than me (only if I want to talk good and read lip good which I do everyday with my job) they already got CI and I do not see why can not you get one too. Hang there. Okay. ((((hugs))))
 
Aww you and your girl look so pretty. Smile. I hope that you and your girl will be okay. Hugs
 
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