VisualistGang
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I'm diagnosed with ASD, but according to my hearing test my hearing is perfectly fine and I wasn't sent to a specialist to check if I've APD. The test never checked speech comprehension. It was only beeps, melodies and animal sounds.
Pre-2020 I felt like I was like the majority of people. I could understand most of what people said, like an average hearing person. The only ways I was different was I didn't like being on the phone or use a radio because of I don't hear intonations very well, may miss a bit of context, emotions, irony and it was like listening to a 2nd language instead of my 1st one. I could understand most of what people said with a lot of efforts, but would be exhausted afterward. I prefer face-to-face conversations over conversations where I can't see the person. E.g. someone standing behind me would require more effort. I can't hear the difference between same gender and same aged people's voices. They all sounds the same to me. I could however hear the difference between accents/dialects and languages. By voice alone I don't recognize my own family members or friends. If someone are the same gender, age and speaks the same dialect, they sounds the same to me. I don't remember voices well either. I relies a lot on body language and facial expressions, as a visual person. To me people looks unique and have an unique personality, but not voices. I learned other could identify voices because of they told me who they were talking to on the phone and I couldn't understand it without them asking who it was.
After 2020 began, I noticed my comprehension of speech changed. I probably went from an average hearing person's comprehension to barely understanding anything, because of the 2020-restrictions. Sometime it feels like I can only hear 1 or 2 words out of 10. Most of the time when I answer people, I guess based on context and visual cues. To me it's like they speaks a foreign language to me. I've noticed there are several things that have happen. When people wears masks, I can't hear what's being said because of the sounds get muffled by the fabric and I can't see their facial expressions. Many also tends to be more shy, gesture less, talk softly and I feel the language has changed a lot since the pandemic started. I've noticed many new words or slangs which are unfamiliar to me gets used, different speech pattern and people speaking unclearly. It has become more common for both masked and unmasked to speak more softly. These changes are in particularly common for the younger generations.
Nowadays, I prefer written communication and gesture when interacting with people in the public because of these changes. Some has been fine with it and other aren't comfortable with me wanting to write and gesture instead of speaking. I've received criticism for it and some thought I was faking a "disability". In addition to struggle understanding spoken language, I also can't hear my own voice when I wear a mask. I can hear it without a mask. I'm currently learning sign language and is a new beginner. I started for a few months ago. Learning a sign language takes some effort, but it's easier to learn than my first language and English. Spoken languages tends to be much harder than written ones. I feel lonely and that I don't have any place to go because of today's situation. My doctor says my hearing is perfectly fine and I grew up with spoken language in the majority's culture. So, technically I'm hearing. But I feel I don't quite fit in the speaking world. It may or may not be temporarily - I don't know. I don't understand what shop employees, family members, friends, class mates etc. are saying because of the 2020-changes. It feels like things changed almost overnight because of the 2020 circumstances.
Sometimes I just wish I could say I was Hoh/deaf, because of it's easier for most people to understand and almost none have heard about ASD or APD before - from my experience. In addition I've no right on interpreters, notetakers and such in school and work, because of I'm hearing.
Pre-2020 I felt like I was like the majority of people. I could understand most of what people said, like an average hearing person. The only ways I was different was I didn't like being on the phone or use a radio because of I don't hear intonations very well, may miss a bit of context, emotions, irony and it was like listening to a 2nd language instead of my 1st one. I could understand most of what people said with a lot of efforts, but would be exhausted afterward. I prefer face-to-face conversations over conversations where I can't see the person. E.g. someone standing behind me would require more effort. I can't hear the difference between same gender and same aged people's voices. They all sounds the same to me. I could however hear the difference between accents/dialects and languages. By voice alone I don't recognize my own family members or friends. If someone are the same gender, age and speaks the same dialect, they sounds the same to me. I don't remember voices well either. I relies a lot on body language and facial expressions, as a visual person. To me people looks unique and have an unique personality, but not voices. I learned other could identify voices because of they told me who they were talking to on the phone and I couldn't understand it without them asking who it was.
After 2020 began, I noticed my comprehension of speech changed. I probably went from an average hearing person's comprehension to barely understanding anything, because of the 2020-restrictions. Sometime it feels like I can only hear 1 or 2 words out of 10. Most of the time when I answer people, I guess based on context and visual cues. To me it's like they speaks a foreign language to me. I've noticed there are several things that have happen. When people wears masks, I can't hear what's being said because of the sounds get muffled by the fabric and I can't see their facial expressions. Many also tends to be more shy, gesture less, talk softly and I feel the language has changed a lot since the pandemic started. I've noticed many new words or slangs which are unfamiliar to me gets used, different speech pattern and people speaking unclearly. It has become more common for both masked and unmasked to speak more softly. These changes are in particularly common for the younger generations.
Nowadays, I prefer written communication and gesture when interacting with people in the public because of these changes. Some has been fine with it and other aren't comfortable with me wanting to write and gesture instead of speaking. I've received criticism for it and some thought I was faking a "disability". In addition to struggle understanding spoken language, I also can't hear my own voice when I wear a mask. I can hear it without a mask. I'm currently learning sign language and is a new beginner. I started for a few months ago. Learning a sign language takes some effort, but it's easier to learn than my first language and English. Spoken languages tends to be much harder than written ones. I feel lonely and that I don't have any place to go because of today's situation. My doctor says my hearing is perfectly fine and I grew up with spoken language in the majority's culture. So, technically I'm hearing. But I feel I don't quite fit in the speaking world. It may or may not be temporarily - I don't know. I don't understand what shop employees, family members, friends, class mates etc. are saying because of the 2020-changes. It feels like things changed almost overnight because of the 2020 circumstances.
Sometimes I just wish I could say I was Hoh/deaf, because of it's easier for most people to understand and almost none have heard about ASD or APD before - from my experience. In addition I've no right on interpreters, notetakers and such in school and work, because of I'm hearing.