First I would like to say it was a beautiful poem, Tweetybirdie.
Secondly, Angela I know how you exactly feel about your mother after a year past by having to think about her and the memories you had shared with her before her passing day, In fact my family was the same when my grandpa passed away too at the age of 61, the following year after he passed away the holidays weren't the same without him, even his chair remain empty, and it got real weird around all of us, My grandma wouldn't let anyone sit on grandpa's chair, and thinks that he was with us during the holidays. Sad indeed. So, I know you are feeling down about your mother the same way my family did. I wish I was there with you to give you a hug and let you cry on my shoulders even blow your nose on my shirt. *giggle* (seriously, You could)
Hang in there sweetie, You got my support!
Third of all, What bugs me about this thread I'm not angry but disappointing what I've read in this thread, having TOF's name being brought up was really disgraceful, because this is really about Angela's mother, and TOF is another subject to discuss about in another thread, To be honest it shows lack of respect, It might not matter to some of you, but it does matter to me, because for one, How would you feel if you created a thread to just expressed your feelings about your loved ones that passed way within a year later, You find yourself struggle with emotional feelings about your loved ones, just like Angela is feeling, It was kind enough for Tania to created this thread for her after all she knows Angela for many years and wanted our support for Angela, that is the whole point of this thread, not about TOF So, let's show support for Angela and show her that we care and would be there for her when she feeling blue.
We also used to have fun at her house at Christmas Eve.. everything started falling apart after she died so we don't do family gathering much on holidays no more. 
