I have social anxiety and general anxiety along with OCD and I'm scared of sex and germs. Keep in mind,this is not self-diagnosed and I have been going to therapy mainly for social and general anxiety for months now. But I was previously treated for SAD last year but this year in March I got sick and got the flu but being the worrier I am all the time and 20 years old,I thought I had HIV,diabetes,cancer and all of that problems and I was freaking out and worrying and making my body worse and stressed out and my mother and grandmother(nurse) told me there was nothing wrong with me. Though I'm a virgin, I know I don't have HIV but I like watching porn all the time and I feel ashamed and don't want to be controlled to porn but rather feel true love and not be addicted to porn(which I am)and eight months later,I'm still worried but I always had stomach problems like IBM and looks fine and healthy and everything and making progress on my anxiety but not on the porn stuff and social situations since I'm paranoid since I'm deaf and worry what other people in other places like restaurants and public places will think of me.
Don't see me as a bad person for porn addiction. I'm doing the best I can to get away from it. I'm very shy around girls(women but I'm still young so I call you y'all that)and I have a fear of STDs
