I'm going home.

webexplorer said:
Gee. I am sorry how you feel about it. I know a man who works at Lowes (i.e. HomeDepot). His face had burn skin in half (redness). He helps himself to keep busy there, and he is happy to get out and do something. You are not alone. You don't need to be depressed.

It is common that many people are depressed. So am I. They go to see their counselor once a week or a few weeks. It does help them.

We all want to be rich and enjoy without a mortgage. I prefer to pay off all of my bills, and then I can enjoy something without being rich. Wealthy is not always happy life.
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I know, wealthy is not always happy life. But I found out that it is LOVE.
It is my first time I ever felt that. Wow.
 
Why do you always think of Guido? He was just joking with you that you should end your life.
You have something better in ahead of you, and don't worry about your ugliness.
 
Deafilmedia said:
Yeah...

My self esteem.... is very low...

My Camera Instructor was videotaping me and we were testing the
lights... and I saw myself on a screen... and I got sooooooooooo
DEPRESS..... I was like, I can't believe I am so ugly.... Eww, do I really
look like that....
No wonder people are so scare of me.... I feel like I gotta go home.

So I went home.

Even with that cute teacher who looks like Colin Ferrell...
I don't know why he is so nice to me... he doesn't need
to be around me...

Maybe I should take Guido's suggestion, just go ahead and end my life.
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You know, the more you keep on saying you're ugly and no one wants you, then you will actually make people believe that. Your attitude will make people agree with you that you're ugly and unwantable. You need to change your attitude to show your inner beauty and then people will see that. I know someone who is really overweight, well actually obese, but she has a great personality and accepts who she is and she is now engaged and has a happy life. You can have the same, just start believing in yourself.
 
Aw.. Sorry hear about that...

Good Luck your future!!! :)
 
Yeah... thank all.

People there at Film School were very very very nice....

Unbelieveble.

Everybody there are making their own short films and struggling to
succeed...

Everybody there got big dream. Deaf filmmakers can relate to
them... they have frustration... they gotta work harder.

It was so much fun there.... the only problem is my communication and
hearing problem... I gotta work on that.

Let me see if I can call them... hold up.
 
Nothing new about you... you always are Self Pity... thats all......you dont want to change... you expect us to pity you,.... NO...I DO NOT PITY YOU AT ALL....
 
SxyPorkie said:
Nothing new about you... you always are Self Pity... thats all......you dont want to change... you expect us to pity you,.... NO...I DO NOT PITY YOU AT ALL....
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Oh oh, the wicked witch of the west is back...

IGNORE list.
 
Deafilmedia said:
I withdrew from film school today (Friday, June 15, 2007)

I miss my dog... and I am homesick....

Plus I got no friends here and the classrooms at film school are too boring
for me.... I guess because I know some film stuff...

Enough of Universal Studio... and backlot...

Yesterday 2 instructors helped me film 2 actors (student) at the backlot...
It was okay, but too hot out here....

Tomorrow or maybe Sunday, I am heading out... might stop by Las Vegas
and see if I can win some MOOLAH....
YAY!!!!! Bring home the money, bring home the money, bring home the money!!!!!
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What's your 30 reason to withdraw from film school? I make flavor for you to go back to film school and finish your course but ask me about 30 reason.

If not then I will call your film school to override your withdraw, that's not approval.
 
Pacman said:
What's your 30 reason to withdraw from film school? I make flavor for you to go back to film school and finish your course but ask me about 30 reason.

If not then I will call your film school to override your withdraw, that's not approval.
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I don't have a real good reason. Everybody were nice to me there.
Nobody there think I have a bad attitude.

Even that instructor, who look like Colin Ferrel, he is cool.
He said I am not bad,, he doesn't think I have a bad or negative attitude,
he said I am very nice.
I just wish we had a Dolly or a crane to do the "Long Take" scene.
I just think, I don't know... I just punished myself.... cause
I am too ugly and I just don't think I am worth this.

That Julia Dameron really didn't like me because I am too ugly.
Especially the Mosdeux, Chad Taylor and Wayne Betts, they
don't like the way I look.
And that man, Mark Wood, who made the movie "Forget me not",
he never did mail me back my picture and DVDs.
He claimed he is a Christian. I can't believe a Christian would
be so cruel to me.
Mark Wood, Chad, Wayne, and Julia make me believe it is my bad attitude,
or they just trying to cover up their own evil hearts.

I don't see how anybody can support them and their films....
 
Deafilmedia said:
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sorry i had to ask this question but are u a bipolar? cuz it seems that u have extreme depression most of the time and sometimes something else it screws with ur emotions at time cuz u sound friendly to me i m not going to give pity but wha ti can do is maybe findout the cause of ur depression it could be manyt hings
 
darkflare83 said:
sorry i had to ask this question but are u a bipolar? cuz it seems that u have extreme depression most of the time and sometimes something else it screws with ur emotions at time cuz u sound friendly to me i m not going to give pity but wha ti can do is maybe findout the cause of ur depression it could be manyt hings
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LOL I did ask him/her question are you bipolar? in earlier.
 
i m guessing its a her..... or a him hell i dont know nor i care btu then i m curious is it a she or a he? or is ita ..... well it?
 
to let you know..deafilmedia i used to live in tennessee for 20 yrs.. i moved to california 6 yrs ago..... you cannot find anything to keep you happy... you always find faults.... you are not perfect either am i...
 
I don't know why you find that funny.

Bipolar isn't funny.

I don't know what a Bipolar is.

I went to seek counseling many times, and I was never diagnose
with this...

I bet you never met anyone with that.

I think Deaf people got Bipolar... you guys are always angry all the time.
Most of the times I think our Black people got Bipolar, they are so angry
all the time.


This is a dog eat dog world... you guys know what that mean, RIGHT?
People think I am stupid...
Hearing people think we Deaf people are stupid.... Just because
we can't hear, they think we aren't aware of what is happening.


On my first day, I had some female instructors and male instructors.
Then they changed my schedule and told me to do one on one...
and I had all male instructors.

If I ain't smart, one of these male instructors might say,

"SHUT UP, SUCK MY DICK, BITCH!"


You gotta be smart... out here in the world... :giggle:
 
Deafilmedia said:
Maybe I should take Guido's suggestion, just go ahead and end my life.
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Guido didn’t say that—I did. Guido just agreed with me. And you can cut out this “poor, poor pitiful deformed me” crap. I got a PM from somebody else last night who assured me that you are NOT deformed. Think about it, you fruitcake—if you really looked like a human Shar Pei, you could milk it ‘til the cows come home on the Oprah circuit. Think about it: “aspiring young filmmaker with two undergrad degrees meets stifling opposition from the film industry because of her hideously deformed face”. The public eats stuff like that right up—the possibilities would be endless.
 
well you posted Ridor's statement, My face was like melted butter...

So there is proof.
 
Well, I dunno… Ridor essentially sez you’re a superfreak, but two people who know you personally have PM’ed me and told me that you are not deformed. One person told me that you look like somebody with Down syndrome, and the other person said you don’t look unusual in any way. So I don’t know what to think. Why not just post a pic and let us judge for ourselves? Are you afraid to let the world know that you’re just bullshitting about being deformed?
 
Bumpity bump bump bump… The little troll hasn’t responded yet. It is safe to say “GOTCHA”? :rofl:
 
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