i used to like playing on the ZX 81 computer (13yo), riding BMXs (from 11 to 15 yo) when at 11 yo it was like just came in the country, fantastic buzz even more that I pulled longest wheelies in the neighbourhood.....first riding motorbikes in weekends at 12 yo in the back section, even made that into a BMX track lol,..... wish i could go back there again, it was a good feeling that even so im deaf , wearing glasses I beat everyone it 'kinda made up for it', same thing in school, i drew picture better than most kids....theres lots of other things too, this example is just one of the many....theres more painful ones which id would to fix as so to fix my fate to this day (now).....I do believe in this 'butterfly effect'...
i just hate it now, because the 'level playing field is not there anymore'