has Travis come back yet? I was diagnosed with manic depression in 1994. Its no picnic. I struggled to beat it without taking any medications and did really well. however, with what I'm going thru now, I'm back on the medications for depression and anxiety. It has helped alot. Maybe need to up dose the anxiety meds for me. but Travis, what you're going thru.. you're not alone. David is right, you got to be surrounded by people that loves and care about you. you need a support system. if the meds aren't helping you, you need to go back to the dr and try a different brand. there are several kinds of anti depressant meds and it will suit you eventually. but understand that the anti depressant medicine does not get thru your system for at least 2 weeks. you keep taking it for the 2 weeks and see how you feel. if no change, go back and tell your dr it isn't working.. they will give you a different kind. you just have to hang in there and find the right one.
but importantly, you need to be around your friends and family. do not do this alone. don't be ashamed that you have a depression. people may not always understand what you're going through but its good to talk about how you feel today, tomorrow, the next day.
hey.. also.. another idea... write a journal everynight before you go to sleep. write what you did that day, how you felt and why. it will relieve stress before you sleep.
Be strong.