My response may be unpopular since it has not been mentioned in the last 4 pages - - everyone says Travis needs help and I don't disagree with that. What I disagree w/ is that those who are treating Travis seem to be unsucessful as indicated in his plea for help. Travis, since you do want to die. Since you feel hopeless and in despair, then it should not hurt anything at all to walk into any church, on any given day and tell the priest/minister/pastor that you intend to kill yourself. It can't hurt. Honestly, if you have given up on everything, you may as well give God the equal opportunity that you have given the mental health professionals. Just my 2 cents.