I feel depressed.

karbear said:
Didn't know where to post this but.. i just feel depressed. I'm 14 years old. My parents found out I was completely deaf when I was about 1 year old and got me a cochlear implant sugery when I was 2. Cause of the sugery I had to move from Texas to New Mexico and went to an oral school there until I was 5. Then moved back to Texas. Went to a regular school. Like in kingergarden, for the 1st half of the day I went to kingergarden and when the kids would go home I would go to my deaf ed class. At around 2nd grade I stopped going to deaf ed. But I still had speech theraby. Now I have no friends cause when I try to make friends with hearing people it's hard to understand them sometimes. So I'm like asking "what?" alot times. And they're just like forget it. and when I try to make friends with deaf people, I don't feel like I'm a part of them. I mean I don't know sign language and sometimes they kinda ignore me. So I just don't know how to make friends. I'm kinda like in the middle. I'm not in any worlds not the hearing not the deaf. Maybe if I wasn't oral I would be happy in the deaf world. but it's too late. Thanks for reading :/.
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I understand how you feel as I've been there too. Wish you luck learning to sign.
 
I understand how you feel. I went through the same thing. It wasn't easy making friends from junior high until high school. I went to different schools, but it was not always necessarily because of attending a resource classroom for hearing impaired children. Sometimes, we just had to move. I did wish to be transferred to a deaf school mainly because of social difficulties at a regular school. That never happened because some deaf schools's education level is under "normal" regular school level, so the focus was always on that for me. Some people thought that I was the problem for not being able to make friends because I was shy. Actually, I was an outcast, and if someone tried to be friends one day, the next day I was not known the same.

I am not suggesting that your parents will truly understand completely, but I suggest you share with them your feelings. Maybe they can help you find a solution. I am not saying that you need to go through with it like you are. Things can change if it is addressed. Maybe research an oral deaf school for you or a deaf school more appropriate for you while receiving your therapy for your implant, so you can have both of which you need and are entitled to. Maybe your parents can help you find an activity outlet for you to be a part of. You could brainstorm ideas.

I wish you the best and less miserable times in your years.
 
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