Deafmama Thanks! I think you rock too! Ive really formed a friendship with so many of you. You know who you are. I remember coming home from CI surgeon's appointment and getting online saying to my husband" Ive got to tell my friends" he looked at me funny but i really feel like we are special to one another as we share something that even our closest friends could not understand. I'm glad I came back to alldeaf as being able to share with you all really does help. I have to remember not to pull away in the hard times.You guys are the best. Your strength and spirit help me to aspire to be a better person and not think of myself with nothing to contribute.