Originally posted by Steel
You know what pot can do? They destory your brain cells. You know what happens when brain cells are being destoryed? you become more stupid by the mintue. Brain cells will NEVER come back. same as nerve cells. nerve cells are destoryed when you drink achol and get drunk often, it is possible that you could die from drinking too much. It's like you are commiting suicide and WHAT FOR? what good will that do when you kill yourself? I understand your life was full of shit, SO was mine! I've been through hell! My step father always control me and beat me up alot when i was younger, almost broke my arm and skull! Some ppl say nasty things behind my back like I was mad at a friend for not telling some girl that I would like to talk to her or something...but i was NEVER mad at my friends unless it's true but i wasn't mad at him about that and i never even asked him about the girl! Some say that i'm a nerd who likes to collect comics and watch anime...well WHO CARES??? I like videogames and anime, so does everybody else! they always tease me like it's a child's thing but they always take it so negatively. Some don't respect me because they think i'm a pervert when i see some girls in shorts or tanks or whatever...well i have TONS of friends who dress like that, even breaking the dress code, i don't give a fuck. sure, i like girls, but i don't go telling 'em to suck my dick or whatever...i'm really not a bad person. some try to say things to make me LOOK bad for no reason. Some has a horrible sense of humor, you know. Look at my brother...he's hearing, and he has more friends and has alot of girl friends in the past...why? BECAUSE he's hearing! that's why. everybody wants to understand people only by talking and that isn't always respectful. some people can't even talk english so if the person doesn't speak english or whatever, just don't let the person feel left out. That is HOW i feel. I feel left out alot because they never get a chance to know me and the rest of my life and all that shit but they know andrew ALOT more than me and is that fair? I doubt it. If they want respect, then they should respect others as they like to be treated but i guess they keep forgetting it. some are so scared, lazy, and stupid to become friends with other ppl that are different...
The world isnt' fair. Life isn't fair. God isnt' even fair either.
So if you want to end your life, that's your decision. I know your life sucks because you are different. but remember, life can be pleasant. It may not be right now, but it would in the future.
Good luck.
Other part about friends don't hang out with you no more because you aren't on drugs no more <-- that aint true friendship! Fuck them! You can start new life, move on, have a better life for yourself and find new friends that doesn't do drugs or been there and done that which can understand where you are coming from, etc. 
no shit? since 3 yr old? 
damn
