Feeling especially down today, I'm at a very low point and I'm freezing because they won't turn the damn AC off in this building. I decided to finally pour my heart out to someone I love, the only person in this world I've ever felt anything for and she had told me before she had feelings for me, but the response I received was a 'let's be friends' and she said it twice.
Why is it if you like someone or in this case like so strongly you can classify it as love, nobody ever shares your feelings in return, ever. From basic friendship to something that transcends being friends, nobody ever wants to know you or be around you, nobody ever returns your feelings.
To make it worse, after having that conversation with the person, that you've known for some time, you go take a test, get a perfect score, get told how rare it is for anyone to get a perfect score on it, feel nothing about that and then meet with a person who will be your instructor and them ask you about friends and you tell them you have none, but somehow they want you to explain to them why you have no friends.
Then after that, she goes on a rant about the difficulty of the course and makes it sound so hard, nobody could possibly finish it and generally just leaves you feeling entirely worthless.
I just wish I were actually able to function in this world, but it just doesn't seem like it's possible, no matter how hard I try. Sorry to bring everyone down, but it's how I feel, it's bothering me having nobody to share it with and I'd post good feelings, if I ever had them.
