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SkullChick

SkullChick

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I just want to vent.
I feel like I'm invisible or unwanted everywhere even on here in AD I wonder what's wrong with me?!
What's about me that is totally unlikable?
Never say anything positive about my appearance like "you're beautiful" always look at me and pick something stupid like "your eyebrow is nice" gee thank for letting me know you couldn't find anything else pretty about me wth....
I'm nice, friendly, unusual in good way, intelligent, open-minded, and all good stuff but yet nobody seem to like those traits to become friends, or hell at least become someone to talk to or say hi, small talk.
And my fiance is ONLY one that actually fell in love with me, my other ex was my first bf but he only picked me cuz I have "v" I didn't know any better so we stuck around for 20 months so obviously that killed 95% of my personality and who I was. So I'm slowly rebuilding it back been almost 2 years but I'm trying build it back but I still don't like who I am right now I missed who I used to be. I used to be crazy, wild, spontantious (spelling?) random, willing to do anything to makes people laugh or have fun, fearless, all good stuff but now I'm extremely reserved, shy, scared of everything, boring at time, forgot how to hold a normal conversation because I didt have 1 in too long time. Maybe since I don't like who I am is reason other people doesn't either?
Dunno just having hard time right now so I had to vent :(
 
SkullChick said:
I just want to vent.
I feel like I'm invisible or unwanted everywhere even on here in AD I wonder what's wrong with me?!
What's about me that is totally unlikable?
Never say anything positive about my appearance like "you're beautiful" always look at me and pick something stupid like "your eyebrow is nice" gee thank for letting me know you couldn't find anything else pretty about me wth....
I'm nice, friendly, unusual in good way, intelligent, open-minded, and all good stuff but yet nobody seem to like those traits to become friends, or hell at least become someone to talk to or say hi, small talk.
And my fiance is ONLY one that actually fell in love with me, my other ex was my first bf but he only picked me cuz I have "v" I didn't know any better so we stuck around for 20 months so obviously that killed 95% of my personality and who I was. So I'm slowly rebuilding it back been almost 2 years but I'm trying build it back but I still don't like who I am right now I missed who I used to be. I used to be crazy, wild, spontantious (spelling?) random, willing to do anything to makes people laugh or have fun, fearless, all good stuff but now I'm extremely reserved, shy, scared of everything, boring at time, forgot how to hold a normal conversation because I didt have 1 in too long time. Maybe since I don't like who I am is reason other people doesn't either?
Dunno just having hard time right now so I had to vent :(
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Okay......
(its aok to vent i kinda understand how you feel but in a different way)
anyway...
i think you're a very pretty girl... i love your smile :Dmakes me smile and im not just saying that i really do mean it
and i think it takes a great person to want to change after such crappy situations (for lack of better word) that you've gone through it takes a while
and im glad you're working hard at it
as for ppl ignoring you..i dont think they're really ignoring you..or i hope not..well at least im not im here for you :D
have a good day and feel better :)
 
avwdng29 said:
Okay......
(its aok to vent i kinda understand how you feel but in a different way)
anyway...
i think you're a very pretty girl... i love your smile :Dmakes me smile and im not just saying that i really do mean it
and i think it takes a great person to want to change after such crappy situations (for lack of better word) that you've gone through it takes a while
and im glad you're working hard at it
as for ppl ignoring you..i dont think they're really ignoring you..or i hope not..well at least im not im here for you :D
have a good day and feel better :)
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Yea thanks
 
Probably some folks are not really familiar with your style and others.. so give plenty of time till everyone catch on to what ya are saying and etc..I'm sure it will be fine as ever for ya afterways....just be patient and keep on talking here in AD and more...
 
first.. never drama because it's waste.

second.. be good thoughtful, play good game, be fun

I love to read someone who make serious good stuff I like to read.
 
Just be yourself, others will notice you and like you for who you are in and out. :)
 
SkullChick, I understand how you feel. Noone tell me that I am pretty. I was going to be your friend but you seems push me away. That is your choice that I don't make you to be my friend. I am avialable (sp) to be friend. I think you are nice lady.
 
Sorry about your thur.. but hope someday will be good and new friends :)
 
hey Skull - what's "v" ? Keep participating in AD and post more! that's how we get to know of each other. I think I made a rocky start because of my views that scared people away but I hope some people come to understanding that I'm a nice harmless guy :cool2:. I think some of ADers think I'm a dirty old man :naughty: haha. oh btw - I thought your v-blog was cool.
 
lilylover72 said:
SkullChick, I understand how you feel. Noone tell me that I am pretty. I was going to be your friend but you seems push me away. That is your choice that I don't make you to be my friend. I am avialable (sp) to be friend. I think you are nice lady.
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I ain't call you pretty because you're not available. :D
 
I felt the same as you do, so many things have changed since like my friends, my interests, my dreams, everything and it can be sort of depression when things change, ya know.

But just try as best as you can to keep yourself happy is the only solution :)
 
OOOOOOOOO I think I know what "v" means... :naughty:
 
PowerON said:
I ain't call you pretty because you're not available. :D
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lol I still tell guys that they are cute. I let anyone tell me that I am pretty that I am married. It is okay to say you are pretty or you are cute.
 
I'm sorry that you are having such a tough time right now, Skullchick. I can assure you that you are not invisible on AD, and that I have always enjoyed chatting with you.

Just a reminder....we must like ourselves before others will like us. It comes from the image we present. Behave as if you are a person others would want to know, and it attracts those who want to know you.
 
lilylover72 said:
lol I still tell guys that they are cute. I let anyone tell me that I am pretty that I am married. It is okay to say you are pretty or you are cute.
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For myself, I don't want to make them feel flatter *shurg* I guess that's my way. :hmm:
 
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