Well, I guess I sound soooo scared. It's not that. It seems that some SSDi'ers are saying that sometimes it's a one way street. If you don't do things right, you're screwed. It seems to me that I need to prepare myself to the best before I walk in to the SS. I heard so many final decisions made on the first impression. I have disability but I'm good at hiding it since I was brought up in the "hearing" environment. Some don't know it since I've had speech therapy and some know it right off the bat. They might say, "My god!, he can work!". Sure, I can remove my hearing aids and write on a tablet for communication. How embarrassing but possible.
From my first conversation with SS was that they told me to go through 30 weeks of severance pay and after that, go through 30 weeks of unemployment and then apply at the SS. My gosh! 30 weeks plus 30 weeks plus two years of SSDi and then I get Medicaid. Looks like I'm going to have to stay home and eat raw vegetables till I get on Medicaid. Besides, applying for unemployment shows I'm capable of working. I see a little contradiction here. With my hearing test, I tried the best to hear and might have jumped a few guns to hear better so my audiogram may show better than expected. Looks like I'm going to have to redo my audiogram to fit the real truth. If I hear it , I hear it, who cares. If I don't, I don't. My past audiograms show my hearing at my hyped-up energetic super-concentrated best.