Whatever I did in my past life must have been pretty bad, considering how shitty my life in this one can be. LOL.
Just saying.
I personally don't believe that the things we endure in our current lifetime are punishment for past lives. I believe we choose certain challenges and obstacles before we come here to gain better understanding and insight to what life is all about.
While we may not see in the moment what is to be gained, there is a lesson to be learned in every experience and every interaction we have. It forces us to take action, and to fight rather than retreat. Every time we overcome an obstacle, we feel better about ourselves and get a nice boost of self confidence.
I believe that in all our different lifetimes we experience all sides of the coin. Let's say in a past life you were royalty, and had all the wealth in the world. In your next lifetime you might come back as a peasant, being forced to earn everything you have.
That's not to say your life as Royalty was perfect. Your father was abusive, and your mother had no backbone. In your peasant life, you had a strong family connection filled with love and support.
My point is, every person faces challenges. Those challenges are just different, but it doesn't necessarily mean that one challenge is worse than the other. They are just different.
If we take a step back in times of hardship and think, what lesson can be learned from this? What good can come out of this shitty situation? You'd be surprised the insight that can come from quiet reflection.
One example, my son having a hearing loss. Well, the good that came out of that was that I learned sign language. I also learned to be a strong advocate for him in school, to stand up to the administrators when they continually tried to shut me out. Ultimately, they ate poop and we got what he needed.
My son also has serious chronic medical issues. With him being born early, and being hospitalized for extended periods of time I learned to advocate for him in that realm too. I never take the doctors/nurses word without asking questions. I don't let them medicate him unless I know what it's for and that it's the appropriate dosage. I learned to be an active participant in his care, questioning things that weren't right.
The moral of the story is that their is good in the bad, we just have to take the time to find it.