Awauphi
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excatly right~ thanxz
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excatly right~ thanxz
My life is often governed by the urge to find a mate. If I could stick a pencil in my ear and sever the portion of my brain that pulses love and sex I would. There is a heavy weight on my chest that makes it hard to function, and I fear my despair is caused by loneliness. Yet, I am unwilling to expose myself and enter the dating realm. I have lost the part of me that relates with other people, and it becomes harder to recover with each passing day.
I have depression, but I think depression is a word used to describe a lack of self. I’m a ghost of my former self; more observant, but far more desolate. Does that make any sense? It barely does to me either.
Kai.. you can't snap out of depression. I know.. I have depression. Being with someone helps, but i still have to deal with it myself.
Depression isn't funny. Having days where I'm so depressed I don't even want to get out of bed is not funny. There are days it's hard to even eat. Sometimes it's like you think nobody in the world loves you, and all you want to do is crawl into a hole and forget life.
But I've been lucky to have a man who loves me uncondintionally and a family who sticks by me through thick and thin. Can you imagine someone with depression without all those?