Okay it sounds impossible to roll after CI...
Wow I feel pretty screwed.
I understand that hearing is more important but I wish you guys wouldn't make it sound as easy as sacrificing a stick of stale bubblegum for better hearing.
It feels like even after CI I will still be depressed despite the many other opportunities that will open up.
I don't think you understand how important jiujitsu is to me.
It's more than just 'fighting' as your tone implies that to you, it must sound like the most unnecessary thing to keep. It's a physical game of chess and it's my favorite game in the whole world that I want to do for the rest of my life.
Not only am I going deaf and blind with usher syndrome, but I also deal with clinical depression.
Jiujitsu is more than just a game as it is my medicine. Understandably, games are not important in life, but medicine is. To top it off, I have a large jiujitsu community that motivate me in life and to give it all up sounds so depressing. The jiujitsu community is my brotherhood of motivating hard working folks that inspire me.
I hate regular sports with a passion but I love martial arts. That's just how my opinion is and nothing will change it.
It now feels like I have 2 options:
Get CI and lose jiujitsu.
OR
Wait 10-20 years for stem cell research to find a cure but cope with deafness until then.
Either way it sounds like I'm going to endure a lot of pain.
In the end, I'll admit it.
CI is more important.
But holy shit it's still depressing, y'know?
It's insulting when you guys make me feel like I'm being a 'reckless' idiot.
I just want to be able to continue something so important to me. Something I thought I could get a job teaching in the future.
But now those dreams seem sabotaged.
Thank you for all your help though.
I guess my next step is to really think about sacrificing jiujitsu.
It will take me awhile.. but please don't make me feel like an idiot.
Thank you for everything.