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Do you agree with this?
"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And, in life there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?"
- From "Sex and the City"
I do.. Here's a lil something from my heart Just kinda feel like venting or whatever you guys call it..
I got this off of a friend's site, it totally hit home with me. In the last year and a half I have turned a 180, I think. When i graduated from high school I was a total freak - I did what I wanted and I didnt care who I hurt. I did some pretty bad things, but I know i did some good things too. I would just do things as they came, a week in Rhode Island, went to Chicago the day after i got back, only for a day. I took endless trips with Tinystrawberry, not caring where we went or why, or even how. I broke my heart a hundred times (ok maybe not a hundred but many) and then when I thought I was happy, I wasnt. I hated my life and how boring it was, I hated the fact I did nothing but work and come home. I felt like i was a disappointment to everyone around me. And then I decided to move out, and eventually go back to school. In the last year I feel like I have grown so much, and that I have become so much more responsible. I try to do the things I know are right, and I try to do everything the best I can. My teacher said, "you really are your worst critic," when I said I thought my last paper was a piece of crap. (Which I got an A on, by the way.) I strive to be a better person, and then when I come home I want to be that person, you know? Im constantly changing myself so that I can find where it is I really want to be, and how I want to be.
I want to stay in love, I want to be with someone always, I want to be successful in some way, I want to publish my poems someday. I also want a family, my own house, a yard that I can try to garden in, I want the time to sit and do nothing for more than just one day. You cant fit all the laundry and play time in just one Sunday a week, you know. I want to be happy in all ways - with my friends, my relationships, my family.
Is that too much to ask for? Sometimes I think it is. I mean, I'm not really being the best I can be right now, seeing how Im at work and I have 15 mins before I go. I looked at myself in the mirror today, I know I'm losing weight (from all that biking due to the bus strike) but I feel so old. My hands look all dry and weathered, I am always tired. I want to cuddle at night with Megladon and do absolutley nothing but watch tv, but all I can do is fall asleep the moment I crawl into bed when he says, "just one minute."
I guess that's what it means to be 20.
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Yeah.. =/
"When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And, in life there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?"
- From "Sex and the City"
I do.. Here's a lil something from my heart Just kinda feel like venting or whatever you guys call it..
I got this off of a friend's site, it totally hit home with me. In the last year and a half I have turned a 180, I think. When i graduated from high school I was a total freak - I did what I wanted and I didnt care who I hurt. I did some pretty bad things, but I know i did some good things too. I would just do things as they came, a week in Rhode Island, went to Chicago the day after i got back, only for a day. I took endless trips with Tinystrawberry, not caring where we went or why, or even how. I broke my heart a hundred times (ok maybe not a hundred but many) and then when I thought I was happy, I wasnt. I hated my life and how boring it was, I hated the fact I did nothing but work and come home. I felt like i was a disappointment to everyone around me. And then I decided to move out, and eventually go back to school. In the last year I feel like I have grown so much, and that I have become so much more responsible. I try to do the things I know are right, and I try to do everything the best I can. My teacher said, "you really are your worst critic," when I said I thought my last paper was a piece of crap. (Which I got an A on, by the way.) I strive to be a better person, and then when I come home I want to be that person, you know? Im constantly changing myself so that I can find where it is I really want to be, and how I want to be.
I want to stay in love, I want to be with someone always, I want to be successful in some way, I want to publish my poems someday. I also want a family, my own house, a yard that I can try to garden in, I want the time to sit and do nothing for more than just one day. You cant fit all the laundry and play time in just one Sunday a week, you know. I want to be happy in all ways - with my friends, my relationships, my family.
Is that too much to ask for? Sometimes I think it is. I mean, I'm not really being the best I can be right now, seeing how Im at work and I have 15 mins before I go. I looked at myself in the mirror today, I know I'm losing weight (from all that biking due to the bus strike) but I feel so old. My hands look all dry and weathered, I am always tired. I want to cuddle at night with Megladon and do absolutley nothing but watch tv, but all I can do is fall asleep the moment I crawl into bed when he says, "just one minute."
I guess that's what it means to be 20.
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Yeah.. =/