Thanks everyone for support, love...
i am doing ok, stress and not ready to accpet yet.. so i found out more, my mom have appt dr on may 1 to discuss abt surgery... then we will know more.. sigh.. i found out abt my mom, last week on wed night and i didnt sleep for 45 hrs, been cried hard, out of control and lil crazy.. i really love and cherish my mom. she is my best friend.. i am only child and very close to her.. i dont know what to do, i was shock and speechless.. i pgr DD and told her and she was there and comfortabled me, i was alone while my fiance was at work, i felt alike i wanna SCREAMMM and pull my hair out!!!! wanna to say WHY WHY WHY MY MOM??!?!? i was not accpet, my eyes swell from cried lot lot... so i pgr my fiance to came home from work, he shocked abt this, he was there with me, i didnt eat much alike 4 times in 45 hrs.. so i finally sleep last thursday late night for 9 hrs and now better much sleep but i am think postive abt my mom and be there what she need me.. i dont care abt what waste gas on car.. i wanna make sure my mom is okay and need something.. *tearing* whew.. ok... thanks for support again..