Phi4Sius,
I'm excatly like you. I lost my hearing when i was almost about 4 years old but i actually lost my hearing at 3 years old. And now i'm 15 years old. (will be 16 next month on the 26th of august)
I have my left ear implanted. Which my left ear is dead as well. My right ear, is hard of hearing. While growing up i never heard any sounds coming from my hearing aid to my left ear. Because its dead and its no use to anymore. But While i was growing up, (about the age of 6 or 7 years old) I was thinking about getting a CI alot. And when I finally decided to get a CI i talked to my parents about it. And they supported me in many situations of my decisions in whether i wanted a CI or not. And I remember those long unbearable waitings for getting my CI. I waited for every phone call that came from the CI company that would call and say that i'm accepted.
I'm not sure what my hearing level is, I never really knew how to read the audiogram or learned how to. Thats just a whole 'nother math stuff for me to learn. But I'm pretty good in my speech.
I also learned that a dead deaf ear, can become a better and good deaf ear because that has happened to me. Every time i go to my CI audiologist for a appointment to "tune up my CI" I get better with my audiogram everyday. And 2 weeks ago which is my last CI appointment, I have improved triple my audiogram than before. So many of you guys are arguing about getting your good ear implanted. But thats not what Phi4sius wants. It is his DECISION. Phi4sius is right too. He has never gotten anything through both hearing aids in his left ear. I was experiencing the same. And I would also take advantage of whats out there now and experience it.
Honestly, I think people should learn to accept it. It doesn't really matter if some deaf people don't want us to have one because it's so permanent. All it matters is that it's your decision. I mean, isn't deaf people is also your second family? I think we should all support each other whether we like it or not. I'm actually tired of hearing the same stories over and over and over again. It's always: "Implant it in your good ear because it would improve your hearing alot MORE."-- sure that might be true, but with a dead ear, you can learn MORE from it.
"But a implant is so permanent"--Yes it is permanent, but its also worth it than having a hearing aid, because after having a implant, a hearing aid just makes sounds louder. your life with a implant would be so much better because there will be some situations where you will need to hear in case like a tornado alarm, or when somebody breaks into your house, or when you're out in the city somewhere and somebody is screaming for help, or when you want to hear your child's first cry when they're born or their first word.
I don't like it when i see good deaf friends are arguing over a cochlear implant or a hearing aid. I mean if its a ADA situation, i completely understand. But with a CI and a HA, i mean whats the point in arguing about it with your deaf family? Its like not getting what you want and acting like a 5 year old. I understand if some deafies out there are completely fine with what they are now. And i also understand deafies that they don't believe that a CI is going to help anything. It may not help for some specific people but it would also help others. I have seen myself grow with a CI and a HA. I would have to say both technology are amazing.
And you know what else? With my dead, deaf, left implanted ear, I am in my school's year book, as in my own paragraph about me being in the marching band, telling them that It may be hard at times, but I managed to do it. I am the only and the first time deaf girl to be in my high school's marching band, And they are amazed of what I do, and how i managed to do it. With marching band, I'm hearing new notes in music that i never reconized before.
So, Phi4sius, keep fighting. Don't give up. Someday you will have your chance with sounds and you will be so happy with it like I am now. If i were you I would contact your audiologist for any suggestions they might have for you. Or like they said contact your CI company. I'm sure they would be happy to help you out.
and sorry if i am off topic. I just wanted to defense Phi4sius.