BethanyDawn
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Hello. I have had a cochlear implant as of 2005. It helps a great deal, but still find it hard to function in a hearing world. My family is all hearing, so I am pretty much by myself with my hearing impairment and I barely slide by the way I am now. My biggest disappointment has been that I am unable to enjoy music. Wondering if this is normal for someone with a CI? I am especially curious, since I would have thought music would sound better for me now that 5 years have passed. I have not had an adjustment in 3 years, because of lack of money. Maybe this is part of the problem- I guess it's possible I may never enjoy music, but I don't like to think that, because I loved music so much before I lost my hearing. There are many notes the cochlear implant just doesn't pick up and what it does sounds awful. It doesn't sound the way I remember. I have recently decided to learn sign language, mostly so that I can maybe find some deaf friends to relate to. I feel so lonely most of the time. I was thinking maybe if I found some deaf friends to talk to and spend time with and I could learn to sign, I wouldn't feel so alone. I have felt kind of depressed lately. Even if I learn sign language, though, I know I will always be longing to listen to music. It used to be an outlet for me- it always made me feel better when I was down, when I was angry, etc. Now I have to find another outlet, but I haven't, so I am just falling into depression. I was just wondering what other people's experiences were with music that have also had a cochlear implant?
Thanks,
Bethany
P.S. I am new to this forum. This is my first post.
Thanks,
Bethany
P.S. I am new to this forum. This is my first post.