Any One Here Suffer From A Mental Disorder?

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I was dignosed with Bipolar Disorder 13 years ago and been able, thanks to doctors and tons of medications, to keep this evil monster under control for the most part. If it was not for the medication, my oxygen, I would live in blackness each minute of every horrific day.

I had such a a very nasty manic episode last night that I just do not know HOW I was able to recuperate and level off to a near normal state. What a great relief it is to surface in what appears to be a bottomless abyss of madness. I am surviving one day (moment) at a time.

The only thing I wish in this life is for some day soon that medical sciencists discover a cure for this horrific disorder. I would not give this disorder even to my worst enemy its so bad.

Do you suffer from a mental illness like I do?

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If you also suffer (like I do) but do the not want to disclosed it here, I fully understand. Please do write this information down and keep it on you:

Hotline: 1-800-273-TALK (or 1-800-SUICIDE)
or
Click HERE.

Remember that those bad moments Do Pass! That you are NOT ALONE!
Stay Strong!! SURVIVE.

Send me a PM or call the HOTLINE when things are low. My name is Carlos if you want to talk to me; join Bipolar Support. Org. You can talk anonymously on that board. Those on that forum UNDERSTAND your pain so NEVER feel you are alone in this.

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PTSD here. Crazy ex boyfriend. I do a lot of work with people (friends and strangers) on dealing with Domestic Violence. Being able to help people is such a great thing. :)
 
Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder: A type of anxiety disorder. It can occur after you've seen or experienced a traumatic event that involved the threat of injury or death
 
Important to understand: Madness is craziness caused by a medical condition whereas craziness is not.

So when I enter a manic episode I am becoming mad (or madness). Whereas going crazy is just, well, going nuts without having a medical condition.
 
I've met two people in the workplace who claimed to have bipolar disorder. One guy was very nice, but kind of prone to overreactions. He'd react too strong, negatively or positively to things. But generally it was okay. Maybe he had a mild form of bipolar? He was about 62, a recovering alcoholic, on medication for various health problems (never mentioned medication for bipolar though).

The other was a woman, about 45-50 years old, who always seemed very depressed. She claimed to be bipolar too. I don't know if she took medicine for it.

I really felt for both these people. It does not seem to be easy to manage and live with.

I'm glad you've found a way to manage what you have.


The father of a friend of mine is schizophrenic and talking to him is just bizarre sometimes. I don't know how he makes some of the connections that he expresses. But from what I understand schizophrenics often make very loose associations, that seem to make sense to them at the time, but are not associations usually made by non-schizophrenics.

I've read that there's a relationship between schizophrenia and bipolar, but I have not read much about this. I do not know anything more about that. Do you know of any relationship between the two disorders?
 
AquaBlue said:
Important to understand: Madness is craziness caused by a medical condition whereas craziness is not.

So when I enter a manic episode I am becoming mad (or madness). Whereas going crazy is just, well, going nuts without having a medical condition.
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I never really thought about it but that's good to know.
 
Bipolor disorder can be very destructive as it was for one of my brothers. He is a homeless drug addict at 24 years old. Breaks my heart.
 
DeafBadger said:
I've met two people in the workplace who claimed to have bipolar disorder. One guy was very nice, but kind of prone to overreactions. He'd react too strong, negatively or positively to things. But generally it was okay. Maybe he had a mild form of bipolar? He was about 62, a recovering alcoholic, on medication for various health problems (never mentioned medication for bipolar though).

The other was a woman, about 45-50 years old, who always seemed very depressed. She claimed to be bipolar too. I don't know if she took medicine for it.

I really felt for both these people. It does not seem to be easy to manage and live with.

I'm glad you've found a way to manage what you have.


The father of a friend of mine is schizophrenic and talking to him is just bizarre sometimes. I don't know how he makes some of the connections that he expresses. But from what I understand schizophrenics often make very loose associations, that seem to make sense to them at the time, but are not associations usually made by non-schizophrenics.

I've read that there's a relationship between schizophrenia and bipolar, but I have not read much about this. I do not know anything more about that. Do you know of any relationship between the two disorders?
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As for the woman who might not be taking meds I will say this: It would be impossible for me to function without my drugs. My medication is like oxegen - I can't live without it.
Also, some doctors say that yes that there is a thin line between schizphrenia and bipolar disorder while others say that there are no links. I lean on the former because I take medication that's used to treat both illnesses. But it must be understood that my case is on the severe side so I figure the answer would only be true for those bipolar victoms like myself - with a more intense condition.
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shel90 said:
Bipolor disorder can be very destructive as it was for one of my brothers. He is a homeless drug addict at 24 years old. Breaks my heart.
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Very destructive indeed! I can't tell you how many times (I've lost count) I have been hauled away by cops to the ward - cuffed, double-locked.

If you never felt dreadful fear for your life, hang out at your local mental ward for a day or two. While in those places I was SCARED SHITLESS for my life! You see I was with the violent cases, two to a room if you can imagine (you don't know if you'll wake up dead or alive so you sleep with one eye open if you catch my drift): orderlies will be more than happy to thoroughly kick your ass if you fail to comply to their abusive commands the first time - there are no rebuttals to be issued as a prisoner, I mean a patient, in those hell holes. :pissed:

A bipolar life is very different than a normal one. I am not allowed, by doctors orders, to work (which I will disobey - I WILL go to school and be a terp regardless...I lust for normalcy in my life and I'll break free from these chains one day (so is my hope)). I am not allowed to drive even...but I drive, fuck it.

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I'll say this, as far as a cure is concerned there is a current project in Australia working with Cystic Fibrosis. Basically what they are doing is seeing if they can reprogram DNA and unsupress or resupress genes that lead to the patterns that cause genetic illness.

Bipolar is a genetic inheritance that is passed generation to generation and expresses itself with the random splitting of cells from the time of conception.

DNA is like keys on a piano. You hit a certain pattern of keys you get a nice harmonious chord. You hit another pattern and you get some weird sounding NEARLY harmonious minor chord and so forth (I am sure that deaf folks UNDERSTAND sound so I won't go any further with this illustration).

So basically you take a virus, remove its DNA, inject the right DNA and the virus goes around injecting the right DNA into cells and taking it over.

I survive because of such hope....

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As a friend of mine like to say, I hate being bi-polar, it's Fricking Awesome!!
 
I've known quite a few people diagnosed bipolar. I've seen it destroy families, result in abuse and cause loss of jobs. I do hope they can pull together a cure for it. It's frustrating as hell to watch from the outside, I can't even imagine what it must be like to actually be going through it yourself.

You had asked if anyone suffers from mental disorders. An anxiety disorder is a form of mental disorder. PTSD comes in waves too. There are times of depression, extreme fear, self-doubt, flashbacks, etc. I shared and answered your question because in reading your post, I found a lot of similarities as well as a lot of differences between your issue and mine. Bad nights for us are an impossible hurdle too. Sadly, many people in both of our situations never make it through those to see morning. I've very glad you shared the resources in your 2nd post so others that didn't know of them before might have them now. I periodically post hotline numbers on facebook for the same reason.
 
Anxiety is a mental disorder, absolutely!

I have that junk too. Bipolar disorder, Anxiety and ADHD round out my main mental issues.

Other crap like thyroid and blood pressure problems are forcing my doctors (altogether) to prescribe me tons of pills. I take 16 dosages of medications daily.

It sucks.
 
shel90 said:
Bipolor disorder can be very destructive as it was for one of my brothers. He is a homeless drug addict at 24 years old. Breaks my heart.
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I'm sorry to hear about this, Shel. :hug:
 
AquaBlue said:
Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder: A type of anxiety disorder. It can occur after you've seen or experienced a traumatic event that involved the threat of injury or death
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I experience on anxiety cope!! involved normal! seems better well
I believe doctor said anxiety lots of risk high anxiety..I have anxiety disorder. I experience lots of anxiety disorder reason of lots of pretty happened. depend on my medication. It is feeling how control panic easy scared. also I experience. Reason. how feeling do It is comfort strong my calm. I know rough. It is modify on proper to better normal!! It is on brain is on scared on anxiety!!! I am glad of appreciate to lots of my doctor bylaw is strictly is reason modify on observed it quality on medication proper to update. I feeling successfully better improve, they seem looking for me happy. they pretty me better improve well. they know me feeling better seems almost to 3 yrs fast really lots of change improve development heal that is really good that is successfully!
 
Smithtr said:
I experience on anxiety cope!! involved normal! seems better well
I believe doctor said anxiety lots of risk high anxiety..I have anxiety disorder. I experience lots of anxiety disorder reason of lots of pretty happened. depend on my medication. It is feeling how control panic easy scared. also I experience. Reason. how feeling do It is comfort strong my calm. I know rough. It is modify on proper to better normal!! It is on brain is on scared on anxiety!!! I am glad of appreciate to lots of my doctor bylaw is strictly is reason modify on observed it quality on medication proper to update. I feeling successfully better improve, they seem looking for me happy. they pretty me better improve well. they know me feeling better seems almost to 3 yrs fast really lots of change improve development heal that is really good that is successfully!
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Panic attacks are the worst. I use cognitive exercise: breathing very deeply and very slowly as I take a brisk walk around the block. I try to think of calming places like a beach setting or humming a relaxing tune in my head as I experience the dreadful attack. I also take meds for the condition. Then when I feel it ceasing I close my eyes and lay down for a bit.
 
AquaBlue said:
Panic attacks are the worst. I use cognitive exercise: breathing very deeply and very slowly as I take a brisk walk around the block. I try to think of calming places like a beach setting or humming a relaxing tune in my head as I experience the dreadful attack. I also take meds for the condition. Then when I feel it ceasing I close my eyes and lay down for a bit.
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sorry hear you feeling your suffer bad! :( do you have attending to psychiatric or doctor? I did attending to show up psychiatry 3 months! pretty. psychiatry said no bipolar. I follow to listen to psychiatric..


It seems on my feeling comfort happy normal. It wholes protect to my medication. psychiatric handle on medication do best effort. psychiatry careful support to my care-giving 24/7 hours... communication and I decision wise! lots of issues!
I glad of add plus to deaf interpreter communication to straight to my caregiving appreciate to understand to my counselor deaf that is great impressive. also lots! that is sound look likes improve!

Psychiatry honest said no word. said no history bipolar disorder


psychiat told me anxiety disorder , I was shocked. psychiatric no history me diagnosis. I believe. stranger... I don't have bipolar disorder reason. I deep investigation to history diagnose. I ask psychiatry said exactly anxiety disorder reason. that all.. I have high risk concern. my psychiatry anxiety risk! you have lots of medication problem things!!!!!
Old low quality my psychiat reason they was transfer to doctor new psychiat is very good impressive good. Quality psychiat. I thank family physician send to refer to new psychiatric new nice person support.
Carving to help keep health! They lots of support to confidential!
 
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