MidnightSun
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You are not alone
As I was reading each post on this thread I realized the emotional and social suffering along with real pain, so many of us have. So many names for groups of symptoms. So many Psychiatrists medicating, usually more then necessary with the promise of, "if this doesn't help, we can try something else"..Hmmm, I don't want to make this one of those i have more problems then you do posts, so I will simply say, I also have experienced things from early childhood, and unfortunately for me just kept coming. I was so involved in education I tried to figure out what was going on, thru my own research. I
don't like to complain or really even think about most things. When I became deaf overnight and was told I would never hear again, not even my own voice I thought, at first, this is the worst thing that could ever happen to me?? laughing, I had trained myself not to even look at the past much, most of it, I am told is blocked because of the severity. Hmmm..The first time I saw a psychologist, after 3 sessions, she greated me by handing me a note saying , "could you please find another therapist to work with, I can not deal with your deafness" I looked at her and said, do you realize this is the worst possible thing you could have said to me, and left. During the past 18 months I have been dealing with recovery from the incident that resulted in my Traumatic Brain Injury, I met and started seeing a psychologist who said things I had never even thought of. He told me first I can not save, rescue or change anyone. Ok, we talked about my past as much as possible and I learned that what i could recall, as ugly as it was, had somehow taught me some positive things i was unable to see. I am getting stronger now and am dealing with my Brain Injury because somehow instead of shutting me down,
the horrors that I had endured, had made me more resillient. If you are not
getting help from who ever you see, psychiatrist, psychologists, therapist,
physician PLEASE, seek out another until you find the one who can help you put all the parts together. I was at one time taking 11 medications, now I take 2. I have learned that proper testing of all systems in your body is a must, and I use the theory I did my dissertation on for my PhD of Reality vs
Pretense. Looking at things, honestly (even if you need the help of a professional to do that) is the reality. So many of us accept things we are told or ways we are being, or have been treated, pretending it's gonna get better or change.
We cheat ourselves out of a real chance to understand and find the tools we need to cope with and possibly rid ourselves of the damage that has been done to our bodies, minds and spirits. Smiling, no -pretending for me. If someone or something causes me to worry or stress I remove it from my life.
Please do not think i am saying it's easy, I am NOT! I am saying keep trying until you feel that first hour of managing things, then perhaps it will become a day without pain. Drugs are both necessary and dangerous at times. Be cautious, Be Happy, Be Well....I wish you Peace..Midnight♥♥♥
As I was reading each post on this thread I realized the emotional and social suffering along with real pain, so many of us have. So many names for groups of symptoms. So many Psychiatrists medicating, usually more then necessary with the promise of, "if this doesn't help, we can try something else"..Hmmm, I don't want to make this one of those i have more problems then you do posts, so I will simply say, I also have experienced things from early childhood, and unfortunately for me just kept coming. I was so involved in education I tried to figure out what was going on, thru my own research. I
don't like to complain or really even think about most things. When I became deaf overnight and was told I would never hear again, not even my own voice I thought, at first, this is the worst thing that could ever happen to me?? laughing, I had trained myself not to even look at the past much, most of it, I am told is blocked because of the severity. Hmmm..The first time I saw a psychologist, after 3 sessions, she greated me by handing me a note saying , "could you please find another therapist to work with, I can not deal with your deafness" I looked at her and said, do you realize this is the worst possible thing you could have said to me, and left. During the past 18 months I have been dealing with recovery from the incident that resulted in my Traumatic Brain Injury, I met and started seeing a psychologist who said things I had never even thought of. He told me first I can not save, rescue or change anyone. Ok, we talked about my past as much as possible and I learned that what i could recall, as ugly as it was, had somehow taught me some positive things i was unable to see. I am getting stronger now and am dealing with my Brain Injury because somehow instead of shutting me down,
the horrors that I had endured, had made me more resillient. If you are not
getting help from who ever you see, psychiatrist, psychologists, therapist,
physician PLEASE, seek out another until you find the one who can help you put all the parts together. I was at one time taking 11 medications, now I take 2. I have learned that proper testing of all systems in your body is a must, and I use the theory I did my dissertation on for my PhD of Reality vs
Pretense. Looking at things, honestly (even if you need the help of a professional to do that) is the reality. So many of us accept things we are told or ways we are being, or have been treated, pretending it's gonna get better or change.
We cheat ourselves out of a real chance to understand and find the tools we need to cope with and possibly rid ourselves of the damage that has been done to our bodies, minds and spirits. Smiling, no -pretending for me. If someone or something causes me to worry or stress I remove it from my life.
Please do not think i am saying it's easy, I am NOT! I am saying keep trying until you feel that first hour of managing things, then perhaps it will become a day without pain. Drugs are both necessary and dangerous at times. Be cautious, Be Happy, Be Well....I wish you Peace..Midnight♥♥♥