Aweh. It can't be that bad! I got tired of my every-day routine and all and thought of my life the same way so I'm trying to break off from that and try new things. Do diff stuff I dunno, maybe you can try to do that too?
The*Empress- 
Well, it's an age old question really. The meaning of life. In theory we make our own meanings. I'd suggest you find a hobby or something to do that makes you happy and do it passionately. Maybe take up watercolors or something? There's a style called "Sumi-e" which is basically ink wash. It's quite beautiful actually, maybe you'll find joy in that?
