Whenever I find out people have done something extreme such as learn a language just for my benefit, I'm very grateful, of course, but I also feel ashamed for those people feeling that they had to take such extreme measures just for me. It doesn't bother me so much when I find out I'm only a small variable in their decision, and they're doing it not just for me, but for lots of people, or possibly only for their own enrichment. Especially if those people seem to me to be trying to use their newly acquired skills for our mutual benefit, and not for the purpose of showing off, "Look what I can do!" I don't know what to advise you because I know most people feel differently from me, but in what way they feel differently, I don't know.
I have to be honest, and you may want to consider that sometimes I feel like I'm starting to develop a general dislike for hearing people, and I really truly don't mean to be because it's wrong and I know it! It's only because they tend to disregard me or treat me like a defect or an annoying insect, or completely ignore me. Hearing people who respect me get my respect in return. I don't wanna offend anybody, and I hate grouping people into categories because all my life, I've been grouped into categories and judged by other people based on stereotypes. I just want you to know that I'm not prejudice, and I know it seems bad how I feel, and it is, but I donno how to change it.
