Okay . . .
GTM, this is what you said: "But I can tell you how I view trust . . . So here what what trust means to me:" Then you explain two different ways.
Go back through your comments because you said two totally different things under each heading how you view trust and what it means to you. As a guy, I know that a lot of women do just like you're doing in your post and refuse to believe they're playing mind games with the guy. Then, when confronted, they make excuses and cry about it, making up more mind games as they go. Which is it?