sr171soars,
May I....
Since you've mention that you don't want to be any part of the Deaf Culture what do you mean by that? Is it because you find it uncomfortable that you might get rejected? To be honest, it's all depends on you, rather you want to be able to communicate with them or not. Why is it their fault that they might cannot understand you if you do not know any sign language or another way to communicate? Is that your reason for running away?
Look at me, I'm not a skilled ASL signer, like the rest of the deaf individuals, I'm more Signed English. I try my best as I know how in order to communicate with them. I'm not going to rejected the Deaf Community just because I do not signed in ASL, I treat them the same dignity, respect, and courtesy that I show to others. If a deaf person doesn't understand me, I'll rephrase it. If I don't understand them, They'll rehrase it too.
But, from what I've been reading by you, You seem that you don't want nothing to do with the Deaf Community because that now you have a CI, You would rather to fit yourself more in the hearing world than both worlds. It sounds like you're rejecting them, not them rejecting you.
