Things I wish my Dad knew: (VENT)

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My father and I were very close when I was little.
When my dad left things changed. I remembered
being a little girl thinking when I grow up things will be
different.

20 years later.

My dad still only talks to me for 6 mins on the phone.
It's casual, weather, kids, health, school, jobs and my Grandparents.

I wish that he could see that I still want that relationship with him. I think if he died tomorrow, I'd regret it more than him. Because I want him to know me for me. He has never had that opportunity to have a relationship with me.

My Grandmother is my only piece of him that I have. (sniff)

Dad, if you only knew that how badly I wish you could see your grandkids. How you only come down just for my cousin's weddings. How you could have profoundly have an impact on them, I just wish you knew.

I feel so sad, that I missed that time with him. Now my girls are missing that time with him. The only real Dad I know now is my FIL, and the only REAL Grandpa my girls know is my FIL.

Sorry, I had to vent.
 
I don't have any contact at all with my Dad. I got tired of needing him to be a Dad to me and never getting that. It's sad, but I am happier with him out of my life, but I can't say I have it all resolved. If you still have contact with your Dad, maybe you can ask him for what you need?
 
Or you can either get a card or create one and write a heartfelt letter just like the post you created and perhaps he may 'feel' your heartache(s) and mail it out to him...and do let him know how much you truly miss out on the 'father/daughter relationship', the times spent together, etc.,...I do hope you'll be able to reach out to him so he'll 'see' and open his eyes and heart and reach back to you in the way that you fervently hope for! Just don't give up!! ;)


Lastly, if you believe in doing this, then saying a 'prayer' surely can help. :)
 
Aww :hug:


Why not tell him how you really feel, hopefully he will finally see the light...
 
RR I think I will try that.
I email him often, but never get
any responses. (sighs) I have told him
many times, that I want him to stay on
the phone longer but he just doesn't agree
to that. I get jealous seeing how much
my inlaws are so sensitive and always take
time out for both of their sons. No matter what,
even if they "feel" that they need to talk, they provide
that opportunity for them to do so. (I want to model our
parenting after them).

I won't give up hope! Tomorrow is always a new day.
 
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