coolgirlspyer90
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SO, i had a crush on my section leader who is a senior. and throughout the fall season he has been helping me know my music and help me realize my mistakes when i played the wrong note or key. And i thought we would be good friends and he also has been fingerspelling to me where we are in the show. But throughout the season, we argued on the stupidest things in band i thought we would just move on with our lives and just forget about it. But he was stubborn enough to make me say it to him when i don't want to. We basically aruged alot. so up to this point this week [monday nov 23rd] he took me off of his friend list on facebook and my heart broke desperately. because it felt like he gave up on me and basically told me that hes not my friend anymore. and today was the first day of winter drumline practice and already, i did not want to go to practice and see my crush. I basically cried my eyes out because that hurt really bad. My mom told me that he was suppose to be section leader and show teamwork and unity of the front ensemble, and by doing that he's not being a very responsible section leader. But still it hurt. And i'm probably not going to be talking to him as much. But when winter season is done i'm probably going to be deleting his phone number when its not worth texting him anymore.
I don't know what to do. I thought i had everything worked out between us. Apparently not. And i feel like living under a dark cloud right now or living in an endless nightmare that isn't going to go away. I don't know if i should be glad that he's graduating this year or be upset or be mad or just something. I sended him another friend request. he declined it. which makes me feel super bad. and i just want to stay at home tomorrow and just cuddle in my bed and hold my stuffed animals and never leave my room.
Because in school in first period, i'm a facility assistant to the ASL teacher and my crush is in that first period class. And i don't know, but they're going to a computer lab to work on a project and i want to see if i can go to the band room and practice instead of being at the computer lab seeing my crush. because if i see him, i'm going to feel like i need to cry again. I had to make up a lie today because one of my friends in the hornline said that i looked like i was crying, but i told them that it was weather allergies and that my eyes were watering and itchy. but the truth was i was crying. i'm glad i have the week off. some of my friends cheered me up a little. but i'm still upset. Nothing is going right in my life right now.
I don't know what to do. I thought i had everything worked out between us. Apparently not. And i feel like living under a dark cloud right now or living in an endless nightmare that isn't going to go away. I don't know if i should be glad that he's graduating this year or be upset or be mad or just something. I sended him another friend request. he declined it. which makes me feel super bad. and i just want to stay at home tomorrow and just cuddle in my bed and hold my stuffed animals and never leave my room.
Because in school in first period, i'm a facility assistant to the ASL teacher and my crush is in that first period class. And i don't know, but they're going to a computer lab to work on a project and i want to see if i can go to the band room and practice instead of being at the computer lab seeing my crush. because if i see him, i'm going to feel like i need to cry again. I had to make up a lie today because one of my friends in the hornline said that i looked like i was crying, but i told them that it was weather allergies and that my eyes were watering and itchy. but the truth was i was crying. i'm glad i have the week off. some of my friends cheered me up a little. but i'm still upset. Nothing is going right in my life right now.